Happy Easter to all my readers.
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Later that night, after Claire and Tony took Alan home with them. Stella stayed with Mac. She knew it was going to be a very long time before he made any kind of improvement. Taking off her shoes she climbed in beside him and rested her head on his pillow. Then leaning her lips up to his ear, she whispered...
"Hi Mac. Are you having a good rest? You must be, for you look so peaceful and relaxed. I must remember to ask you when you come home, where you visited. Maybe one day I can go there too. Or we can go together.
I love you Mac. Love you so much. But right now, right now Alan needs you. He's very upset and confused with what has happened. He's taken it upon himself to blame Donna. It seems he overheard a few of our conversations, along with one Jess and Tony had in the kitchen tonight.
Tony has done his best to help him come to terms with it not being Donna's fault. Though I can't say I blame our son for having these feelings. As much as I love Donna, I can't help but feel myself if she had been honest since the begining, things may have been different. But I guess we'll never know. The only thing we can do now, is bury our son and move on.
But in order to that, Mac. I need you to come home. Please don't make me bury our son alone. We all need your strength, your love to get through this as a family. I'm not ready to live my life without you. Just as you are not ready to die without me. We are suppose to go together, Mac. As two, never as one. Our love was meant to end with the two of walking hand in hand through those gates, so don't you think of going ahead of me, you just keep fighting your way back, I love you, Mac."
Taking his hand she held it. Then resting her head closer to his shoulder, she closed her eyes.
Meanwhile...
When the house was quiet, Donna got up and wrote a letter...
"Dear mom and dad,
I'm sorry to be doing this again. But I can't stay here with all this guilt I feel. I need to go away for a while. I don't know when I'll come back, but I know you will take good care of my children for me. I'll leave you my bank card, with all the money inside, along with my pin number. There is enough in there to keep you all going for a while.
You can also have Gary's benefit pension when it comes in, I'm sure when you explain it to the company, they will allow you to have it for the kids. Once again, I'm sorry mom and dad, I just can't be here.
Give all my love to my children, and tons of kisses from me. I'll call from time to time, and check in.
Love always, Donna
Leaving it on the table, she grabbed her bag and headed to see Jason. When she arrived he was on the front door.
"Donna... what are you doing here? You should be at home."
"I needed to tell you I'm leaving. I don't know when I'll be back. But I want to thank you for everything."
"Hold it... what about your kids? What about your parents? Christ Donna, is that all you do is run away when things get to tough?"
"Nooooooo... i just...."
"Just nothing Donna. You're not going anywhere but back home to your children. You are going to face this head on. Running again isn't going to solve anything. You made a mistake, you learn from it and move on."
Dragging Donna inside with him, he told manager he needed to book off. Then taking Donna by the hand, he dragged her to his car.
"This is it Donna. You will stay and face this. I won't let you abandon your children."
Putting her in the car, he slammed the door. Then getting into the driver side, he drove her home.