Its been a rough night.. sorry!
To my so called friends..
Going out with you guys tonight made me realise I am no longer a part of our group. And it hurts like hell. And I am disappointed.
How can you still believe our group of friends is still the same when half of us no longer believe in our friendship? How can you believe all 8 os uf will remain friends forever. When I graduate, I'll no longer hang out with you.
You guys are no longer the friends I used to have. I changed. I changed too much. And I am no longer a part of you. Nor do I want to be.
I am in control of my own life and it hurts me to say that I will not be a part of this group again.
And to my ex-girlfriend: If you wanna be fake, than be fake. I you wanna be stupid, be stupid. If you wanna ignore me when I try to get past our latest fight, do so. But please, don't forget who you used to be. If this is what you've become since I left you, I don't think you did right. You turned into something I know you always hated.
And that hurts too.
I am glad I left early tonight. I no longer wanna be a part of this miserable theatre. You guys were supposed to support me after this break up and be there for both of us. You're just there for her and expect me to be just like you. I am not. You're supposed to be there for me in this hard time, in this struggle to stop cutting myself and to make something out of my life but you leave me behind, leave me abandoned.
I found new friends. True friends. Girls I will remain seeing after graduation. Girls who are there for me and from who I know they will support me all the way.
It hurts but its over. Some things don't last forever. Friendship being one of them. Goodbye.
To my beloved teacher
I hate the fact you canceled our next appointment. Though I am glad you picked a new date. But it sucks its like 2 weeks from now. I want to talk to you, have things to say but gotta keep it all inside for a while more.
I hate the fact I am in love with you. But the thought of talking to you, and seeing you in the hallway at school, gives me strength. I am thinking of you.. though I know I shouldn't