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"Hey Jessie, I know this must be really hard on you. But you know what? Your mom isn't worth it. Know why? Cause she's selfish. Very selfish, rude, uncaring and most of all unloving. You should be glad she's gone. She's not worth your love, or your respect. She's a coward. A selfish coward. She thinks of no one but herself, and..."
"No she don't. Stop it auntie."
"Stop what? The truth. The truth that she's worthless, and selfish to those who love her? Or because she doesn't know how to love? I'm glad she's gone, she never deserved your dad. He was to good for her. Always so selfish, and uncaring."
"Noooooooo... stop it. I love my mom, I love her, she's not selfish, she's not uncaring. I don't understand? Why doesn't she love us? Why auntie. Why doesn't she care enough to love us. It's not right, it's not right that daddy is gone. While she leaves us alone with our fears and pain. She should have thought of us. We loved her, we always loved her. I don't understand why she didn't love us back."
Hearing her heart break brought tears to Mac's eyes. His granddaughter was blaming herself, thinking that she was unworthy of being loved. How wrong was that? How utterly dispicable and mean, to make a child feel unloved.
Opening his arms, Jessie ran into them, and cried. Wrapping her up tight, Mac let her soak his shirt, he let her pour out her years of pain, from feeling unloved.
"Why grandpa" Why does she hate us so much?"
"She doesn't hate you, love. Don't ever think she hates you. She just can't cope with what life shoves at her. So she runs. This is her way of escape. Yes it was selfish of her to leave you, and your two brothers behind. It was cruel and uncaring. But you can't let that rule you, Jessie. Do you understand? You can't allow your heart to become cold and distant. You need to take on your fathers loving spirit. That is the spirit he embedded into you. Use that strength and love to survive each day. You are loved Jessie. Billions by your grandmother, myself, your nana and papa, Claire and everyone else in our family. You don't need a mother to nurture you. It's what we all do together as a family. Just trust in our love sweetheart. We will never leave you."
"I know grandfather. I just miss daddy. He should have never died."
"You're right about that love. But there is nothing we can do about it. We have to move on. All you need to focus on, is you and your brothers. It's up to the three of you, to make your father proud. To show him that he raised you right, with love and understanding too others. You need to remember that Jessie. You were loved, always loved."
Listening to her cries become quiet, he knew in his heart that his grandchildren were going to need every ounce of love and warmth they had to give. In order to survive their life that now lay ahead, they would need strength, and guidence.
"How about we get something to eat.? I'd really love to taste your cooking."
"Okay, I'll be right there, grandfather. I'd like to talk with auntie first."
Walking over to her aunt she sat down.
"Auntie... I know you didn't mean all those things you said about my mom. Some of them, yes. As I agree on them too. But the others? Those I know you only said to help me release my pain."
"I'm glad Jessie. I want you to know that if you need to talk about anything, including woman problems, and don't feel comfortable talking to grandma. You just let me know. Okay?"
"I promise auntie. I love you. Thank you."
Hugging her aunt tight, she whispered... "I love you too, kiddo. Now let's head to the kitchen to eat."
Later that night, Tony showed up to take Claire and the kids home.
"Mom... I'll give you a call tomorrow. Night daddy." as she kissed him.
"Night love. Drive careful."
Heading out to the car, Tony asked....
"Baby, where's Donna?"
"She took off, left the kids with mom. I'm telling you, if I ever see her again, I'll sock her one."
"How the hell can anyone abandoned their children. How can she not feel any guilt?"
"Who knows. To be honest I don't care. Let's just get home. Graham needs to be bathed."
Once Graham was bathed and in bed. Claire gave her boys kisses goodnight.
"Hey mom?"
"Yeah Jimmy?"
"I love you, alot. I just thought you should know that."
"Yeah... me too, mom. Lots and lots."
Leaning over her sons, she ruffled their hair and whispered back...
"I love you two, too, Jimmy. Alot, forever and ever. I thought you should know that, too. Night."
Snuggling him down, she turned off the light and headed into Julia's room.
"Hey my Julia, you ready to be tucked in?"
"I am mommy. I love you."
"I love you too, my angel. Sleep well, angels to protect and comfort you."
Kissing her , she snuggled her down, and left the room.
Walking back downstairs, she found Tony laying on the couch watching the news. Nearing his side, she laid herself between his legs with her head resting on his chest.
"Are the kids all tucked in, baby?"
"Yeah. So how was your day?"
"It was okay. Alot of exams to grade. But they can be done tomorrow. For now... he said clicking off the television. It's time to love my wife."
"You know what Indiana? I think you're right."
Taking her into his arms, he caressed her beautiful skin. Leaving her to sighs and purrs, as his hands roamed across her sinful body. Lowering his head, he traced his tongue over her lips, before sensually kissing her into the darkened night. So lost as their fever meshed and burned.
Looking into each others eyes, both more then ready to soar with their souls. He whispered out...
"I love you, Claire, love you forever."
Those were the last words spoken, as the only sounds that now filled the Staton bedroom were their purrs and passionate sighs.Shortly after their passionate storm, Tony carefully lay Claire's pliant body under the covers with his. Pulling her in close, he whispered...
"Sleep well, baby. I love you."
"I love you too, my Indiana."
Sighing at his pet name, he closed his eyes and fell into sleep.