GrissomLivesOn: I was going to quote your post, but just decided getting rid of mine was too much of a hassle at 11:30pm...lol
I understand what you are saying...it
is hard to see LF on there and not Billy. I watched some of
A Space Oddity and just kept waiting (subconciously) for Billy/Grissom to turn up, and of course he never did. That, I will admit, was hard. Very, very hard.
But, I think you kind of have to look at Grissom's perspective (as a character, not Billy's necessarily, although I think the two were essentially the same): which, is in essence it's time for him to move on. He's gone through some very rough emotional stuff, Wark just died, his life is upside down and immersing himself in his job isn't helping (that's something I would turn to, as well)...He has to get out for his own mental & physical well-being. Him moving on is difficult, but it's a GOOD thing.
It's been good physically & mentally for Billy, too. He looks so happy & so healthy & so full of life again, and isn't "bogged down" by the weight of carrying this character of Grissom through his now very sad, difficult, and confused time...he can kind of let that go for a while (til he makes his cameos) and live his life apart from Grissom-
he gets to live as Billy Petersen, the man/actor, not as Grissom, the scientist/character.
I know I have said all of these things repeatedly, but these things are honestly what you need to revel in, these things (ie: Billy is still very happy and healthy, and has not let go of Grissom, misses the character & will be making guest appearances...also that he (Billy) is still EP of
CSI so he still has quite a strong investment in the show) are what you need to remind yourself of and to focus on, because those are what get you through.
My last piece of advice to you is to
STOP/CEASE/QUIT watching your
CSI DVDs for a while. A week, 2 weeks, month....because those are constantly reminding you of what you are missing, and who isn't there anymore, and that's
not helping you at all. Put them in their place on a shelf in your closet or somewhere where you won't forget where they are, but where you won't see them EVERY single time you open/close whatever, and just live your life. I had to stop watching the regularly scheduled new eps of
CSI and the SPIKE tv re-runs of it for about 1-2 months after Billy left in order to get myself to stop obsessing over the fact that he's gone from the show, and being upset about it. It sounds harsh & hard, but that is really what you need to do. Otherwise, this cycle will continue and you'll just be miserable all of the time. Take this advise, think about it, and do it. Honestly, it's time, girlie....We've all been through it, me included, and it's your turn now, ok?
