Re: Crime Of Passion
Her lip quivered a little. Her pain and torment was obvious behind her brown eyes but apart from that she looked just as strong as ever she was. She knew how to hide it all inside, but Grissom was the one who could always bring it out of her, who could make her feel so vulnerable that she had to talk to him.
"Daniel turned up two days ago and told me...she's due here in two days. I really can't handle seeing her again Grissom...you wanna know where I get my alcoholism from? I watched her and my dad when I was little...all my mom ever did was drink herself silly so that she wouldn't feel it when my dad...but I didn't have that. I felt everything."
A tear cascaded down her cheek before she could stop it. And then another followed. She fought against her emotions but she'd kept them bottled up for so long that she didn't have the strength to fight them anymore.
"I was taught not to show anything I felt though. When he...hit me, he knew exactly where nobody would be able to see. I had bruises on my legs and my arms but he made sure I wore enough clothes to hide them...I'm surprised he even bothered really. Other then hitting me, he never even seemed to notice I existed."
Her voice hitched in her throat and she had to swallow down the lump there before she managed to continue.
"My mom saw it all, she knew what he did to me....but she didn't even try to stop him. She just pretended like nothing was happening and turned to the drink. I don't actually remember ever seeing her sober. I guess when I got out of there, it was kind of a relief...but I always got those looks, y'know? From the other kids when I was in foster care. They kept their distance. I was "the anorexic kid whose mom killed her dad". I think some of them were actually scared of me, like the violence was genetic or something...I don't know if that's true or not, even today."
She wasn't crying anymore, just staring at a spot on the ceiling as she lay on her back, her expression distant but her eyes holding all the pain she was feeling.