And no, I do not want to hold any baby, I don't want to play with any and jeebus christ why I cannot have wedding invitation (to my own) that says "no kids allowed" because there is nothing more annoying at any party than kids that can walk (usually around 1 to 4 yrs) who cannot understand commands, keep running and screaming.
*le sigh*
At least you still call them babies,
Ducky...I just call them little humans which inevitably makes the little devils cry even more, making me even more annoyed. As you can see, I also don't see the appeal with small humans. Maybe you,
LumDeNo, and myself can form a We-Don't-Babysit coalition. It would be kind of like Alcoholics Anonymous except we would talk about our frustration with all those needy small humans.
So I really don't like to deal with kiddos.
LumDeNo(sorry, I'm too lazy to type out the full name
), at least you have the common sense to admit that. I know way too many people who have kids even though they know they can't stand kids. Someone needs to put on a billboard that babies aren't accessories, unless you like being permanently attached to something that cries and poops constantly with a stupid grin on it's face. If people still want to have kids they should, at the very least, train it like a dog to eliminate embarrassment on their part as they realize all of their friends have left to find other friends who don't carry a squealing manure maker to dinner parties. I need to call my governor so we can get this law on the books in Florida.
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Rant to myself,
As glad as you are at becoming wiser and understanding/being proud of who you are, it doesn't mean that you have to forget about the simpler things in life. You used to do things impulsively but now you're always thinking about the pros/cons before leaping which kind of sucks.
What happened to lighting sparklers in the middle of the night just because? What happened to playing laser tag with flashlights in the house, even though you knew that something would inevitably break? What happened to the old you?
It's great to have goals that you want to achieve, but don't forget that it's okay to let your hair down every once and awhile. There's nothing wrong with being a little out of control, no matter how much you might think otherwise. Even a self-proclaimed perfectionist like yourself needs a little controlled chaos to keep the creative juices flowing.
I know it's scary, but with fear comes courage, which leads to further understanding of the world you so desperately want to figure out. Hopefully, you'll listen to these words. It doesn't have to be today but whenever you're ready to remember who the old AFIS was, before responsibilities became important.