BDS, your English is a lot better than most of the hillbillies that live around here....in the US. I can't understand several things on my FB newsfeed because grammar and spelling is slowly fading. At least in the south it is.
I'm so glad I remembered this thread this morning. I've been wanting to rant about something without someone telling me I shouldn't think about it or whatever.
I just came back to Talk CSI after a couple of years because those two years were so ridiculous. I was in school, working, got a bf, my mom's health was declining, I had a hard time paying the bills, etc etc. My bf (only one I've ever had) started out normal but slowly turned into mega douche. We got engaged but he was never happy about it and couldn't hold a job to save his life.... I wound up always paying for everything and then we just kept arguing and arguing all the time, so we broke up. I quit school, got a full time job, and moved back with my parents. .... And then my mom died. My ex came to the funeral, got me when I was vulnerable, and we got back together. It was absolute HELL. He was verbally and physically abusive, he STILL couldn't hold a job, and he lied about everything. CONSTANTLY. Since he was so sketchy, I looked through his phone and saw where he'd been sleeping with or dating around 20 girls and one DUDE!!!! Me and him never slept together.... Not to mention he lied about being with me and was also dealing drugs.... This is a dude that convinced everyone he was this perfect church boy... And everyone still believes him!! Anyway, I broke up with him about 7 months ago. He keeps trying to contact me and my friends.... So the other day I just let him have it. I cussed him out and called him out on everything. But he still denies everything and pretends to act like a perfect little angel. But in reality he's a sociopath!! He said I was making up stories about seeing that stuff in his phone!!!!! Why would I do that?!?!
But something I'm really upset about is that I looked at a friend's twitter, and they were sending flirty tweets to each other... She KNOWS how low down and skanky he is.... I want to say something but idk how that's going to go down....
It just made me feel sick when I saw it last night..... I mean, should I remind her that he's psychotic??
On another note, my self confidence is at an all time low bc that psycho is the only one to have ever asked me out..... I know I'm not hideous or anything.... But I feel like all guys my age (20s) just want the perky, short blonde type that doesn't think too much. I'm tall with dark brown hair and I would categorize myself as more the intellectual type. I read constantly and I don't jump all over boys or smile from ear to ear constantly. I'm not angry or sad, I just don't have a smile permanently etched on my face. And I'm also from Illinois, so I wouldn't categorize myself as a "southern belle."
To the people who think it's so weird I'm learning Hebrew.... Get over it. It doesn't mean I'm converting to Judaism, though I am ethnically Jewish. The old testament was written in Hebrew and so many words get lost in translation that many people lose sight of the real meaning of things. I'm wanting to participate in Christian ministry to Jews, so this is one way of completely understanding their language, culture, and religion. I feel like so many people in the south are so IGNORANT about Jews and act like they are just another middle eastern race we shouldn't pay attention to.
And!!!!! Stop looking at me like I've lost it when I tell you I'm ethnically Jewish!!!! I'm not 100% obviously, I'm Irish too.... But so many people give me crazy looks when they see things I've written in Hebrew. I seriously think some people see it and A. Think I've converted, or B. think I'm too interested in middle eastern people. (FYI, the people who caused 9-11 were Muslim EXTREMISTS, nothing close to Jews.
I'm almost done.
There are so many churches that are essentially living by old testament rules that they get caught up in that rather than the NEW testament, which is about love, forgiveness, mercy.... My church is so amazing about showing this and I wish more people could see it.... I get sad every week thinking of people who feel trapped by religion when it shouldn't be about religion at all... It's all about a relationship. I will NEVER EVER force Christianity on someone. That is so redundant and ridiculous. I calmly invite friends to church, but so many of them have been burned by non-biblical churches that they've just sworn it off.
I know that one service at my church would change someone (in a good way). But I never ever force or annoy people with it.
Other than my rant... My life is going quite well. I'm starting college back in January at a major university (taking Hebrew!), I'm moving into a much better apartment next month, and my relationship with my dad has improved 1000% in the past year. So I'm doing great. I just had to get a few things off my chest. Love you ALL, (I also love reading your rants!!) and sorry this is so long!!