to family: i know you think im a selfish ***** who doesnt appreciate what you do.but thats not true i do appreciate everything. the crappy house, in the crappy new area where i have made no crappy friends and i have to get up 2 hours earlier to go to my old crappy school, and your crappy husband who is horrible and cruel you would be sooo much better off without him and yes i hate him everyday it is gettong harder to contain this! i dnt know how long i can take it any more and YES of course something is wrong but im not going to tell you because i actually care about your feelings and dont want to upset you. oh and i wear jumpers and baggy clothes because i am self conscious not because i am an idiot!! I WANNA GO HOME to 'so called' friends: I know you think i am just grumpy and think it is really funny to call me fat, ugly short,stupid and make fun of who i like BUT I DONT. i swear to god i cant take it any more you are not friends you are cruel and horrible and i am sick of you!! and the two faced cow i know you say you hate her and then are bezzies with her the next moment EVERYONE KNOWS you do that. and i dnt care if you are telling her what i am saying about her GO AHEAD I HATE HER. and omg i have problems aswell but even thoguh i will listen to you wine,moan,cry,bitch all day long as soon as i want to talk i am 'depressing, or moany or a big joke to you all' to him: i like you but i know you dont like me in that way but hope you find someone you do like coz you deserve it even if it hurts me like hell. to myself: PLEASE find a new body and personality i dont like this one!!!