Happy now …
I told them … I told them . Everything that was in my heart at the time .
First I had to speak to Grissom . I wasn’t sure at one moment if what I was doing was right . But I knew I had to do it , because my heart was telling it . I started to tell him about how our relationship is never going to work , that I don’t think I love … I told him the truth . He listened to me and understood everything . There was only one thing I never told him … that I was leaving him to be with Greg . I mean , I thought that even if it wasn’t for Greg I wouldn’t have continued the relationship . I mean , I saw that my feelings for Gil weren’t love feelings at all . It would have hurt as both and destroy our lives . After I finished I just looked into his eyes and waited for him to tell me something . Something normal . But he did that
“Oh , Sara , please don’t leave me , please , Sara I love you !” he yelled to me “what did I do wrong , please tell me , I wanna correct the mistake so wee can be together again , please , Sara ! “ . He was crying . I hate grown men crying . And he was such a child . I had to answer to him somehow .”Gil , it’s ..it’s not you fault at all , you understand ? It’s not … but I told you the truth , I don’t love you … not like a lover , I don’t see in you the person that I’m going to spend my life with … you did nothing wrong , please , I had to say this , it would have killed us both , this relationship … couldn’t work… please don’t hate me” I whispered a. “Sara , wait , Sara !” but I ran and left him alone in his office . He just stood there and didn’t even look at me .
I leaned on the door of the DNA lab . And I cried like never before . Because I made Gil cry . Because … it was better for him not to be with me anymore. I left him staring at me and think about my last-minute decision .
Greg saw me and approached . “Sara ! Sara , tell me why are you crying ? Are you okay ?” he just kneeled and hugged me . “I’m fine” I said wiping away the tears “it’s nothing ” He smiled . Oh , God , his smile . Melting my heart . “And I am the most idiot of all the men in the world Oh yeah … now tell me what happened ? Did Griss tell you something ? Did someone hurt you ?” He was so worried about me , his smile was now a frightened look . “No , no one hurt me . I’m just sad … and tired “ I didn’t have the guts to tell him right away “I really want to go home and I don’t feel good … can you give me a lift ?” I asked him . I really needed to be alone with him just to tell him that . “I don’t know …”he looked into my eyes and reralized that I wanted to talk to him ”Sure , wait a sec ” he grabbed his coat and his keys “shifts are over anyway ” . He helped me climb in his car and put the seatbelt on . I was shivering and an electrical shock went through me when he touched me . I knew what that was . I smiled and he started the engine . I was crying when he saw me the first time and now I was smiling . Something happened to me , but I couldn’t stop smiling . When we arrived at my home I realized we haven’t talked at all in the car , so I invited him in for a drink . He accepted . It was perfect . Now I could tell him what happened. “So why were you crying ?” hew asked me taking the glass of juice that I offered to him . “Well … I had to take a decision for the rest of my life” I answered with ambiguity , giving him more answers than questions . “What decision ?” “Yesterday I have been thinking about my life … and I decided to break up with Gil . That relationship wasn’t working at all ” . He looked curious at me , it was like “What the hell ?” . “And … I’m sorry , I don’t know what to say , really … but why ?” he smiled a little “Look I know is none of my business , but if you can tell me …” . “Well , I thought about what did I do in my life … and I saw that I wasn’t in love with him . Not with him , but …” I stopped , what if it wasn’t the right moment ? “But with who ? Come on , Sara , tell me !” his eyes were pleading . I was in so much trouble … was that the right moment to tell him ? I had to tell him I took a deep breath and looked into his big pretty eyes . “You” He looked at in amazement “what me … ?” he was pretty dazed actually … I smiled inside “You asked me who I love , didn’t you ?” I answered to him . He nodded “The answer is you ,Greg , I Love You ! ” I said and watched his reaction . “What ?” he asked “I Love You ” I repeated to him “Then , I love you too !” he hugged me tightly at his chest . I started crying , the emotions overtook me , but then I saw there were tears in his eyes as well “you’re amazing ,you know that ?” I told him , pulling him closer for another hug . “That’s why I love you so” I told him .
I know I made him feel hurt , feel useless and more than that ; but he was truly amazing , because my awful personality didn’t change his feelings . Now I don’t care what everybody is going to say , I am just sitting here , on the couch ,looking at the window . He is sleeping in my lap . My sweet lover … God knows how much he suffered for me . Too much … I see his smile his sweet smile . After all the pain he’d endure … I kiss him on the forehead and I continue watching him .
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Next morning , after a night of watching him , I reach to touch his face . He opens his eyes and lifts on his feet . I love him so much … I still stay here and I wonder what happened last night … I remember talking about our lives and then he fell asleep in my lap . He was the sweetest .
Now he gives me a hand and I lift from the couch as well . But he has other thoughts … he pulls me forceful and he catches me in his arms . Thread , he approaches his mouth from mine and I feel his breath against my lips … is amazing , is one of the things I dreamed of . Then he kisses me … so sweet . Our first kiss . It was the most beautiful thing in the world . We have to get ready for work … I change my clothes in a hurry and we leave to his house , to change his as well . After he makes a shower , we climb in his car and drive to the station . The people are going to talk about us , I’m sure . But I don’t care as long as he’s with me . I did the thing I wished to do for ages and I don’t regret it . He doesn’t either . Now , the love is keeping us together and there is nothing that can break us apart .
We are happy now …
The third part of the story
