Catherinesmyidol said:
To ex gf: I reread your journal today. It happened completely by accident. I was looking for that picture of Melinda Clarke that I love, and you had posted it. I had looked for it on the web and couldn't find it, so after thinking long and hard about how I'd feel afterward I went to your journal. You must think I'm pretty stupid. Since we broke up I hadn't really thought about how much you meant to me. You were my everything. When we only had one computer, I was constantly fighting with mom and doing more chores so I could earn internet time so we could talk. One time mom slapped me when I said she didn't care about me and that only one person did; I was talking about you when I said that. Do you still listen to that CD? The one I sent you? I'm just curious. I doubt you do, because I know that anytime I hear one of 'our' songs, I get tears in my eyes. I saw your picture and I cried. It just makes me so upset to kinda see what we could have had and what we've lost. Is this even normal, 3 weeks after the breakup and I still love you? Forever came all too quickly for us. All the plans we had are gone. Remember that shirt you said I looked the best in, the blue one that said New York? I threw it away. I couldn't stand to wear it anymore. It was an attempt to clear the memories of you. In case you can't tell, it didn't work. I'm not really sure what to think about you cheating on me. You told me everyday that I was the only girl for you; Was it all a lie? Do you regret our relationship? No matter how it sounds, I don't. The time we spent together, even though it was just on instant messenger and over the phone, was great. We made each other laugh and were there most of the time when we needed each other. I really hope you are happy with her; I mean it from the bottom of my heart. You deserve the best. And I hope you are having a good life.
ETA: Thank you for not deleting that Melinda picture from your livejournal.