Re: CSI LV fic "A sick man's game" Greg centered drama/suspe
Ch 29 Blood and tears
Grissom , Nick , Warrick and Catherine watched the police taking Hodges and Jim away . It was finally , over . After weeks of pain and sufferance , it was over . They caught the bad guy and saved their friend . Everything was going to be alright , like it used to be before this . Or this was what they hoped .
Because there will be scars . All of them will have scars .
Greg’s would be deeper ; he was the innocent victim of this sick freak . He had been kidnapped two times , beaten , stabbed , whipped , shot , burned , poisoned … and all this in a matter of weeks . Too many bad things happened to him ; and it wasn’t even his fault . Nothing had still a meaning for the young lab tech there were no answers for the questions he wanted to ask . Through the pain and sufferance everything looked strange , because he thought that it was his fault ; else , why would be so hard to bear ? But no one blamed him ; he felt that they were trying to show him that he wasn’t guilty ; but he also had his faults , he let himself caught by Jonathan in the first place , but how could someone not pass out when is hit in the head that hard ? But he should have fought , not stay there and look at what was happening around him , without even trying to react . That would be the scar that’ll be there , on his heart , always , because he knew he should have done a lot of things he didn’t even try to do .
Warrick will have some memories ; somehow , because of him all this happened . If he had taken care of Holly then and she’d be alive , none of those would happen . But he knew that everything was done now ; he couldn’t turn back time anymore . And everything seemed to keep telling him this . Even his dreams , daydreams . He saw in everyone’s eyes they were looking at him with hate , or this was what he thought . But how could have been possible to see it coming ? To see that someone will seek revenge for a murder happened so long time ago . To think that someone is a good person , a good friend and after a couple of years to be told this was all a lie , that that person was a crazy who hate you ? This was weird and probably a thing that Warrick will never forget . Like what happened with Nick; too many bad things , too many faults .
The overprotective mother of the team , Catherine . She loved Greg like a son , the son she never had and she cried for him , for his sufferance . She felt Greg’s pain inside, she took care of him and tried to calm him after the first kidnapping and she did anything possible to save him . She was the one to call the lab and tell them about the cure ; she really wanted to . At least to help to take the pain away , how he pleaded her to do . She tried to make Warrick understand it wasn’t he culpable for Hodges’ behavior and for the mental problems this one had . No one was except for Hodges . And she really thought what that idiot told them ? He tried to destroy their lives , so she hated him for that . For making her cry ; for making her feel powerless ; for making Greg suffer .And the memories of Greg’s screams won’t ever fade away from her mind . Those would be her scars .
Nick , well , for Nick Greg was a brother , a younger brother , a crazier brother , but still his little brother . All this scared the hell out of the CSI ; he really didn’t understand why all this things happened to his best friend . Only a couple of months passed since he had been buried alive by that Walter Gordon; he was the one who knew perfectly what was Greg going through . perfectly . That feeling that he disappointed all the persons who cared about him , that he didn’t fight . Not enough , anyway . He was now trying to recover from his own problem with a person who wanted to destroy the team . Why the hell now was happening this all over again ? He should make a list with questions he didn’t find answers to . Question like why is happening this to them or who’s fault is . Because he really didn’t have an idea what to say to this kind of questions .
The boss Grissom was maybe the most affected by Greg’s pain , but he never showed what he was feeling . He didn’t want to show the others he was human . But this was Grissom : no matter what he was feeling inside , no one could see that on his face or in his eyes . He didn’t want to look weak . He never looked , that was for sure . Grissom looked so cold , so powerful , even if he was a sensitive kind of guy .Trying to look indifferent was just for keeping the team altogether and help them get past the feelings . Grissom felt his heart breaking apart when he heard Greg’s yells , his shouts for help and the sight of him . Grissom was so proud of having such good guys in his team . Nick , Greg , Warrick , Catherine and of course Sara . They weren’t just his team they were his family , who loved and who he loved . All his anger and torment had been released in the moment when he hit Hodges . This thing happened short time after Nick’s kidnapping , so for him were old wounds opening inside his heart .
Sara , she had been struck by all this hard . She never got time to show Grissom how much she loved him or Greg how much she cared for him . She tried to do too many things at once and never finished them . But this was her personality , a powerful woman , just like Grissom . She’d never agree the fact she can be weak . She wants to look cold and hard , but all people who know her can say she’s not like that . She was a tough girl, who knew to fight life and still she couldn’t understand why , and no one was there to answer her question . She was the only one who stayed with Greg all the time since he had been brought to that hospital . In Greg she saw her little brother ; Josh looked like her younger colleague , but she hoped that Greg won’t end up like Josh , dying on a hospital bed in front of her eyes .
Even Brass had been impressed by what happened . He was the cop , he was not working so much with the CSI , but seeing Greg , who fought so hard to became a part of the team , seeing him trying to please everyone ; he had the chance to work a little with Greg and then understood that he was a powerful person , he had a strong personality , he stood up for himself ; those were the qualities that can be found very hard at a person and Greg had them all . He was the person who reminded him of his own daughter ; she was crazy , she wasn’t listening to anything that people were telling her . And Greg did the same . He wasn’t accustomed to do what everybody told him to, at least he seemed he wasn’t , just like Ellie . But he was a great person and a good friend .
But the true sequel of this , of the bad things that happened with them was just a reason to make them stronger and more close one to each other . To show them that the friendship between them was not to be destroyed by an idiot and his plans . They weren’t just friends ; they’ve been through enough not to realize that they were a true family . Because it isn’t blood that make a family , it is the love and caring . And they loved and cared about each other very much .
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Warrick looked in Grissom’s eyes , right before he started to speak .
”I can’t believe this … is horrible ., I am guilty for everything that happened to Greg…and I really don’t know how to explain this to him . Do you think he’ll ever forgive me ?” Warrick’s voice echoed in the quiet room they were in . Empty , silent , like the way his heart was now .
“What ?” Catherine and Nick jumped .”No , this is not your fault , you didn’t try to kill Greg , what the hell , War !” Catherine almost yelled .”this is not your fucking fault , is all Hodges’ , you got it ?” she said angrily , looking at him with her eyes full of rage .
“I mean that …” but he couldn’t continue because of that look on her face , the spark that was entering his mind right in that moment and stopped him from saying anything .
“Shut up and listen to me : you didn’t kill Holly , remember ? She was shot by the guy we caught . You didn’t do anything !” she snapped .
“But she died because of me . Why Catherine , why did she die ?” Warrick felt his eyes wet with tears , hot tears .
No one answered Warrick’ question; there was no answer to that . He knew it . They could say it wad God’s will or something like that , but they kept their mouths shout .
“Let’s go to the hospital and ” Grissom proposed , changing the subject “ see how Greg’s condition is”
“Yeah , your right , let’s go .”
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While the techs were working on the cure , Sara was looking at Greg who was shaking like hell . He was sweating , his clothes were wet and Sara regained her old feeling of powerless , because she couldn’t do anything to change his condition . She just hoped the techs were going to prepare the cure sooner ; she couldn’t just stay there and watch him .
“Hey , Sara ” Catherine said while she entered the room “Greg…”
“Hey guys” she turned her attention on them she saluted , trying a little smile to warm the coldness of their souls .
They all were watching Greg , whose face was whiter than the last time they saw him , like the sheet he was sitting on and the sweat was running crazily over his face , his shoulders . He didn’t look good at all ; his eyes were squeezed shut , and he looked like he was thinking how to make the pain go away . At least he hasn’t slipped away yet .
When he heard Catherine’s voice , he opened his brown eyes , looking at them . His eyes were so different … that little spark that was always in there couldn’t be seen . They were only some ordinary eyes ; not Greg’s shinny eyes.
“He-hey” he whispered .
“Greg …” Grissom told him “how are you holding on ? How are you feeling ?”
“G-good , I-I t-think …I’m n-not d-dead y-yet” he answered .
“I heard that they are preparing the antidote , you just need to relax and wait .”
“H-how …h-how m-much t-time ?” Greg asked , even if he wasn’t supposed to have so much strength to talk .
“What do you mean ?” Nick asked “what time? ”
“H-how much p-pain….”
He clenched his teeth when a seizure overtook him and squeezed Sara’s hand harder . She caressed his face with her hand and whispered some words that were meant to help him .
The others just watched in horror the pain obviously on his face . They couldn’t even imagine what was he going through . The hell .
After that Greg opened his eyes and spoke again .
“A-ans-swer t-to m-me N-nick…”
“Well , ”
“P-pleas-se … j-jus-st s-speak”
This was too much even for Nick . The look on Greg’s face , his eyes that were looking at him pleading were too much to bear .
“Kind of nineteen hours ”
“N-nineteen ” Greg managed a soft smile “t-that m-much , huh ?”
They looked amazed at Greg . He was a tough guy , that was for sure , because a smile through that pain was a thing no many guys could manage to do . He just wanted to calm them . His fight with the demons inside was painful ; but he’d do anything to stop them from worrying .
This was the Greg they used to know ; he’ll smile even if he’d be at the gates of Hell . That’s why he was so amazing . He was too good for this world .
“C-catherine c-can you g-give m-me w-water …p-please ?”
“Of course , baby , whatever you want you just ask , alright ?”
She poured a glass of water and placed it on his lips , lifting his head a little to help him take a sip . She allowed him to take small sips , until he said her to stop and he placed his head again on the pillow . Catherine took Sara’s place and she was holding Greg now , like a caring mother she was .
They were all in that room , decided not to leave it until someone will come with the antidote .
Warrick and Nick were sitting on the cold floor , Sara was on the chair next to Greg’s bed , Catherine was on the bed , holding his head in her lap and caressing his face and Grissom was on his feet, leaned over the wall .
They all looked at Greg , seeing every seizure he had , all the pain hew was going through .
“You need more water , baby ?” Catherine asked softly .
Greg nodded . She brought the cup closed to his lips ; he needed water because he was loosing way too much liquid by sweating and had to replace it .
When he took a sip , Catherine looked at the water and her hands started shaking , almost letting the glass fell on the floor . It couldn’t be possible … it was not possible … it wasn’t happening .
“Oh my God !” she yelled “we need a doctor !”
“What happened ?” Nick asked , but before he got his answer he saw the water that was in the glass . It was all red , like someone poured something there … something like blood .
“I’ll go !” Warrick said , while the others looked at Greg ; at the corner of his mouth was some blood . He wanted to cough , so Catherine turned him on his side .
Terrified already , they looked with fear in their eyes , knowing that the worse just happened .
They were told that the last part of this poison’s action is a powerful bleeding ; but they also knew that this was supposed to happen when there were twenty hours left , not nineteen .
When Greg lifted his white face from the pillow , his face was all red from blood , so was the sheet he sat on . Greg touched his mouth with his hand and when he looked at it , his eyes widened in shock ; he was bleeding .
“So , this is going from bad to worse “ Greg told himself “maybe this is it ” he spoke in his head and started shaking again , whispering something that no one heard
“What ?” Catherine asked , seeing the horrified look on the young CSI’s face “calm down Greg ” she caressed his face , saying something to comfort their poor guy “the doctor will be here very soon , just stay calm , okay ?”
He nodded , because he was too damn weak to speak . When he raised his sight from the ground , they could see tears falling down from his brown eyes . He was crying .
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