Dean:
There are moments in life when you just don't want to say what's going on, you just want a friendly face to smile and tell you that they love you. That they are there for you. Somehow, you have come into my life and given me this amazing gift. No matter what, whenever I need you, you manage to say just the right thing. It doesn't have to be anything big, and usually it's just 'cheers' or 'hugs and kisses' but it brightens my day to know that you care enough to return my texts and talk to me when I have no one else. God how I wish I could tell you that you are the brightest star in my sky, and that when you told me to picture the happy future you knew I'd have, that I wanted so bad to ask if you'd be in it. My dreams that night focused on you; us sitting on the couch watching TV, with my head on your shoulder, and your arms wrapped around me. You are my everything, and even if I can never have you, I want you to know that the things you have done for me will always be in my heart, and that I will never forget the kindness you have shown me. Even though you insist that I could do better than you, I don't think I can. I don't think there is another man in all the world who will ever mean as much to me as you do. I cannot say this out loud, I cannot risk anyone ever knowing how much I love you. The difference in our age is too great, and although it means nothing to me, and I would feel the same if you were a hundred years older than me instead of just seventeen, I know that others would frown on it. I don't want you to get in trouble, and I don't want to risk losing you, so I will feel these wonderful feelings, and smile when ever I see you, and will never let you know that when you're around I feel so loved, and so safe, that I forget how sad and lonely this world can be. When I'm in your arms there is nothing bad in the world. I want you to know that you are the sun in my sky, and my sanctuary in a terrifying world, but I just can't. If you know only one thing, let it be this; the things you have done for me, and the way you make me feel, will never be forgotten. You are my hero, now and for always.
I love you more than a million words could say, and more than you will ever know.
M