Re: Rant Thread #2
I return here to vent the most problematic part of my life (it also happens to be the sappiest thing ever).
To Dean:
I need you to tell me, right now, whether you love me or not. Whether you want me for more than my body and whether or not I will get to see you more than once a month. I need you here with me, all the time, with your hand on mine. I want to curl up with you on the couch, watch cheesey movies I would never watch if you hadn't suggested it, and lay on your chest so I can hear your heart. I want to know everything about you and have you know everything about me. I have never felt as safe as I did last weekend, with you protecting me from all the shit in my life. Can you look at with the love I feel for you? I know it sounds crazy but I don't care that you're so much older than me, I don't care that I shouldn't feel this way. I just want you to hold me and never let me go. I'm so tired of being alone, or being with someone I don't love. I can't stop thinking about you and it drives me crazy. Please, just tell me if you love me, so that I can either go on without you, or be able to say I love you too. Right now, you're my everything, and I can't think straight without you. You mke my heart flutter and my mind melt. Don't leave me.
M.