I 've been struggling with this story for over a month 'cause S5 is really discouraging. Anyway, I like to share since I've finished half of it. Disclaim : I don't own any character of CSINY. Christmas’s meaningless without you Silent night, holy night, all is calm, all is bright…… Somewhere out of the ward, people sang the beautiful song to celebrate Christmas Eve. Inside the ward, Mac was sitting in a chair beside the bed, resting his head on his fisted hands. Nothing exited in his world except the person who lay in the bed. The one he cared most, Stella Bonersera. She has been lying there for over ten hours, all paled and motionlessly. Someone knocked and opened the door. It was Lindsay. “Mac, you OK? You should go home and try to have some sleep. I’ll call you if she woke up.” “No. I wasn’t there for her then. I want to be here with her when she wakes up.” Mac bent forward and caressed Stella’s pale face. “Mac, please don’t blame yourself for what had happened. Stella wouldn’t blame you either.” Mac didn’t answer. His thought was back to four days ago. ---------------------------------------- Stella knocked on Mac’s apartment door. She was surprised when a beautiful blonde woman opened the door. “Oh, I’m sorry. I…hmm…I…” Stella took a step backward to check the number. “You didn’t get the wrong door. You must be Stella. Mac told me about you. I’m Jennifer Hanford, a friend of Mac.” The woman said cheerfully and extended a hand to Stella. Stella took her hand automatically. “Oh! Hi!” Stella didn’t know what else to say. She didn’t know Mac had company tonight. She just shook Jennifer’s hand and smile friendly. Then she took a closer look at Jennifer. She was about forty, had a pretty round face, two or three inches shorter than Stella. Mac came up behind Jennifer. “Stella. What’s up?” They looked like a couple answering the door. Stella felt she was an outsider. Jennifer was amused to see Stella’s face changed from embarrassing to surprise to jealous in two minutes. “I’m sorry to interrupt, Mac. I didn’t know you have company tonight. I was in the neighborhood. I thought you might want cannoli.” Stella handed Mac a paper bag. “Thank you.” Mac took the bag. “This is Jennifer. She just came from Chicago today. We’re going out for dinner. You want to join us?” “No, thanks. I already have dinner. Nice to meet you, Jennifer! So, see you tomorrow Mac.” Stella waved them goodbye. She left without hesitation. “Oops. You didn’t clear her confusion. It might need some efforts to explain later.” Jennifer said. “What confusion?” Mac was puzzled. “You really don’t feel a thing? Or, you just don’t care?” Jennifer pouted. “She might think I’m your girlfriend.” “Girlfriend or not, it wouldn’t bother her. She’s a very good friend.” “Yeah, like you told me twenty five years ago. I’m sorry Jennifer, I like you but you’re just like a little sister to me.” Jennifer mimicked Mac’s tone. Mac laughed. “You have to bring it up every time I see you, don’t you?” “Do you know how much you did hurt me? That’s why I’m still single. I’m seeking for some compensation.” Jennifer said exaggeratedly. “Alright, alright. Let’s go. You can tell me why you suddenly show up.” Mac grabbed her elbow and led her out.