Well I wouldn't mind dying so much, but I'm scared of dying without having done what i want to do, without fulfilling my dreams. Oh, and without completing one term of school where I hand in EVERY bit of homework on time (I now have three detentions - argh).
Mmm, and I guess, never knowing that i can trust my friends completely. That can be scary. It's hard to explain...
And I fear failure - not minor failures, but total and utter failure of the kind which puts me in the path of a speeding train or a very angry teacher. I can't tell which is worse...
Oh, and not knowing what's gonna hit me next. Which became awful when I went paintballing cuz that hurts.
And when I'm lying in bed trying to get to sleep at night, my thoughts lead eventually to death and infinity, and if I think too hard about it I get really panicky. So I just forget that death is gonna happen and live my life.
And I used to think my schooldays would last forever. Now I realise no. And it scares me that i will actually have to eventually get my own (or shared, but whatever) house and leave my family. This year has been so fast it's really put into perspective how little free time I have left.
I'm scared of a lot, in short. I cease and desist.
Over and out.