Update! Hope ya'll like it!!! Chapter 31 "Ok, lets just go some place then, then we can..." "What wrong with right here?" Eric said as he sat down in a chair. "To many memories?" Eric said looking up at her. "Good. It'll help with the details." "Eric, please...." "I knew there was something going on with you and Zack as soon as he first saw you, I could see it. I just should've listened to myself but I said no, no, no, I just didn't know we had that much in common." Eric said as Natalia pulled up a chair across from Eric. "Eric, I was a totally different person when I was with Zack." "Yea, well Zack still wants whoever you are." "It doesn't matter because I'm not gonna be with him, I've already told him no." "Oh and that's gonna stop him? Or make him want you more?" "Honey..." "Did you mean it?" "Nothing has happened with me and Zack since he came to town, and nothing's gonna happen." "Because you don't want it too? Or because you don't wanna hurt me?" "Look just tell me, even if nothing did happen this time, look at me honey, tell me you don't still want him, tell me you don't want Zack to make love to you. Honey look me in the eye. Look at me." Eric said getting closer to Natalias face as she looked at him. "Tell me you don't still have feeling for him." "I can't. Cause I do." "Well thats progress. You know, honesty. I can't totally blame you though, but you didn't go with it because of me." Eric said as Natalia played with her bracelet. "I almost did go through it because of you. If I wasn't afraid you were gonna leave, you already have." "I'm right here." "No you're not here Eric, you're not in this marriage anymore, really. We haven't slept in the same bed for weeks, you know I wake up in the morning and I roll over to your side and I roll over there to cuddle with you and you're not there, and I miss you..." "I miss you too. So you found a substitute?" "No, you know what, I sit across the table from you, when even bother to share a meal with me anymore, and you are totally somewhere else. I remember we used to stay up half the night just making love and the other half we would laugh, just be together, and talk and talk, and where's that part, where'd it go?" "You know where it went." "No I'm...We used to make love just looking at eachother Eric, just holding eachother, that's what I mean." "I got blown up in a house." "Yea, you got blown up, we got blown up, that explosion took your memory yes, but it took our lives." "I don't remember how to love you or make love to you the way I used too, you understand?" "I can't, now what do you need to hear this, you need to hear an apology? What do you want? You want an excuse?" "No I need my husband is what I need. I need you. I need his love and affection and attention. I wanna sleep in the same bed again. I wanna feel appreciated and attractive. And you know it might be shallow and I'm sorry if it is but you wanted honesty." "You want honesty? I have held you and thats not enough for me, it is not enough and its not enough for you, now you want...I can't make love to you the way I used to so you turn to someone else?" "No, no you can make love to me Eric, you just won't make love to me, is the problem. So was I temped by Zack? Yea, I was because he made me feel...desirable." "You think I don't want to?" "How the hell would I know Eric? I mean if you do then please do something about it for God's sake, I can't make you love me. I mean this is really up to you. What are we gonna do? And I know whats going through your mind right now Eric, that is what your main concern is? Not that I may have slept with somebody else or that I might want to sleep with somebody else but you seriously think I'm only staying in this marriage because of I'm afraid of what people might say about me if I left you? Or I'm stayin with you because I feel sorry for you? No I don't. I don't feel sorry for you. I feel sorry for myself right now is the real...I feel sorry for this marriage because it's been on life support for months. I don't feel sorry for you, I hate you because you have literally cut me out of a partnership that we used to have." Natalia yelled towards Erics face. "I want...." Eric started but couldn't finish. "What do you want Eric? Please just say it. Tell me you hate me, you wanna divorce me, whatever it is just say it please." "I wanna have my old memory back, and I wanna walk over to you and I wanna hold you and I wanna take you into my arms and never let you go. But I can't." "But I can help you remember. Eric, this used to be a partnership." Natalia said as she slid out of her chair and bent down in front of Eric wrapping her arms around his waist. "It's 50/50. Please come back to me." Natalia said as Eric placed his hand on her cheek and rubbed her chin as Natalia slid her hands to his chest. "I love you. I'll never stop loving you." "I'll never stop loving you." Natalia said wrapping her hand around his and kissing it. Eric pulled her up into a hug that they shared for a long amount of time. "How about tonight we drop the kids off at my moms and we spend the night together?" Eric said as he pushed some hair behind her ear. "Sounds good." Natalia said smiling at him. She hopped off of him and the left the place hand in hand. Later that night they dropped the kids off at Erics grandparents and then headed back home.