Re: Nick Fic Song Challenge #3 - "The Change" - Authors Revealed!
The idea for mine came from something egeria said, I can't remember if she pm'ed me or posted here in the thread in response to my frustration over not being able to come up with something.
Actually, it was
Jacqui who first mentioned hope as a concept for the song...so credit where credit is due
Now, I just want to thank everyone for being able to come up with nice things to say about my story. Originally, and at the last minute, I almost didn't submit it. I know I upset a lot of people with my story, and for that...I'm sorry.
Thinking about the song and applying it to Nick was really easy. It seems to epitomize his character. But I didn't know how to write that without getting sappy, and Nick is also a modest guy so I thought any story I wrote that shows what a compassionate, caring and empathic man he is...I could imagine Nick squirming with embarrassment.
So I thought, what if Nick were out of the picture?
And so. Yes. I did it. I killed Nick.
And somehow, no one is surprised.
Trust me, I was in tears while I was writing it, but once I had the idea, the words wouldn't stop pouring out of me. I started by writing as if it were Warrick's funeral, because I wanted the pure *shock* of Nick's death to hit my readers, trying to convey the shock the team would have felt on hearing about it.
Catherine's speech is essentially the song, but I wanted Brass to read it, because it creates an incongruity that reflects the confusion of grief and loss.
Cassie had to be there, as she is the living example of Nick's unfailing trust in his own instinct, his dedication and determination that makes him more than
just a CSI. He truly goes above and beyond. (I almost included Eli too, but I couldn't do it in a way that added to the story instead of detracting from it.)
For the purpose of my story Nick died in the line of duty, for those of you wanting to know. The flag over the coffin was the only clue.
I want to thank everyone for reading, and writing such nice things about my story.
Smokey will tell you, I was expecting people to hate my story, and I thought most of you wouldn't leave a review at all, let alone nice ones. And if you *did* hate my story and left a nice review anyway, well...you have my utmost thanks.
Those of you leaving CSI fandom because of Ray Langston will be missed. For my part, the way the show is going isn't desirable, but that only inspires me to write *more* fics, not less. But we all react in different ways, and I hope you can find inspiration elsewhere that's as fulfilling as CSI has been.
Sincerely,
E.
