A/N: Nobody else reading this?
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Chapter 10: Surprises
Greg stepped towards her, hands still in his pockets. He motioned her to walk along with him and Sara fell into his pace next to him. They were walking towards her car quietly. Sara had figured that they would have to hold a conversation at some point, that they would not be able to get out of their ways forever, and she did not even want that, had never wanted it. She did not even really know how it had come so far. She remembered things Greg had said, Nick had said, people in the lab had said, she herself had said, but now while she was walking along with Greg over the parking lot, it seemed stupid, or maybe not even stupid, but just… pointless.
She would have never thought though that their first conversation would be silence. She glanced over at him and struggled to come up with something she could say. Anything on her mind did not seem to make more sense than the last few weeks, months did.
They had nearly reached her car, when Greg turned fully around to her, stopping in his tracks.
“How are you doing?” he asked.
Sara was a little surprised by this simple question.
“I’m fine,” she said finally. She did not think she would have been able to come up with a completely true answer even if she had wanted to.
Greg smiled. “That’s good.” He looked at the ground sheepishly for a moment before his gaze wandered back at her. “I’m sorry I never called…” He paused. “I could have checked to make sure you’re doing alright at least.”
“It’s okay,” she returned. “I…ugh…” she turned away, confused and upset. She made the last few steps towards her car, before she faced him again. “The trial… I…”
“It’s not your fault,” Greg said clearly. Sara saw more people coming out of the building in the background. Maybe she should rather look at Greg.
“But-“ She felt the need to object.
“Do you remember how you told me that nothing what Charlie did was my fault?” Greg questioned calmly.
Sara nodded silently, remembering how Greg had blamed himself and how she had insisted that there was no blame on him.
“Well, it’s certainly not your fault either,” Greg said. “And anything that happens in there-“ he pointed at the court house, “happens because of him, not because of you.”
She looked directly at him now. “I’m sorry,” she said quietly.
He made the few steps up to her. “Don’t be.” He kissed her. It was short and sweet and surprising.
Sara blinked. “That was nice.” He did it again and she smiled. His kisses felt almost as if it had never been over.
“We never ended it, you know,” he said now, which was another surprise, though not as sweet.
“We didn’t,” she replied between two kisses. Greg stopped, looking at her. He did not seem as calm as before, but was looking rather sad now.
“We didn’t even fight,” he said and Sara nodded. They had not fought. And technically they had never broken up. Maybe this was good. Maybe they would not have dared to start it again, if they had actually broken up. Maybe they could just go on where they had left off, no bitter feelings about fights and break-ups involved. And considering everything that was going on around them, maybe they needed something to hold onto.
“We didn’t,” she agreed quietly. “Do you want to fight with me?”
Greg seemed puzzled, trying to gauge in which manner she actually meant this question. He glanced over his back at the courthouse. “We should get out of the parking lot,” he said, not answering her question. Sara nodded, turning to open the door of her car.
“Do you… want to go somewhere?” she asked. He nodded, but did not make a suggestion. Sara pondered where they could go. Both of their places seemed oddly awkward. The lab was certainly not the right place to talk, or even to fight. “We could grab something to eat,” she proposed. “We could go to my place, or yours, later, if we feel like it…” If they wanted to fight after all. Or maybe sleep together.
“Okay,” he nodded.
“Do you want to come with me?” she asked, pointing at her car. It would make more sense of course, if they both went in their own car, but she did not want that their thread of conversation broke off. She wanted to talk now, or fight, but if they now left separately, they might be sitting in awkward silence somewhere later. Maybe this would happen anyway.
“I can leave my car,” Greg returned slowly, implying the question if he could come along with her.
Sara nodded. “Get in here,” she ordered with a smile. Greg walked around the car and got in on the passenger’s side.
Sara drove off the parking lot in silence but once they were in traffic, Greg started talking much to her relief.
“I would be okay fighting with you,” he said. “But I prefer a yelling Sara over a brooding one.” He looked at her from the side carefully.
She smiled. “Why?”
“If you’re yelling, I can at least answer back.” He looked at her again, less careful and more sheepishly now. Sara wondered where to they were actually driving. There was still time to decide. She could just drive to a small restaurant near Greg’s place. Somehow she felt like they could actually end up there after all.
“You’re right,” she replied to Greg’s explanation. “So if you want to fight later, we can do that. I’m open for other things as well though.”
Greg grinned. “I didn’t think I’d get to hear that today.” Sara smiled. “Makes my day so much better,” Greg added.
Sara’s smile grew somewhat sad now. They could not forget what else was going on. She seriously did not know what she could do, how she could help Greg. It gave her a sting that she felt so helpless in this matter.
She should have answered something, for now they were sitting in silence again. It felt strange having Greg sitting next to her so quiet. It was a relief that they arrived at the place she had decided on and could get out of the car.
“We’ve been here before,” Greg said, when they were walking inside. “Once I think.”
Sara nodded, remembering the night when Greg had taken her out here and they had ended up at his place. She had teased him about how convenient it had been and smiled now at the memory.
“Yeah, we were. Your place isn’t far,” she said, wondering if he had the same memories she had. Greg smiled and Sara felt sure that he was really thinking of the same thing she was.
Once they were seated she saw that he was watching her closely and Sara felt awkward and happy at the same time, sitting there together with him. She reminded herself that a lot of kissing had already been going on earlier. They would be fine, even if they would fight later. Right now she did not think they would. Of course there were several possibly issues.
“How are you really doing?” Greg asked suddenly.
“I’m fine,” Sara replied, grimacing slightly in confusion. “As you can see and I’ve told you earlier.”
“I’ve seen you very stressed the last few days,” Greg contradicted.
“Understandably.” Her expression was earnest. “Really, Greg. I’m doing fine. And now I’m doing even better.” She leaned over the table, pressing her lips against his.
“If we go on like this, we’ll really end up at my place,” Greg laughed happily. Sara blushed lightly, glancing around in the restaurant, hoping that nobody was watching them. They were sitting in a fairly closed off place though, so she did not think this was the case.
“We can eat and then go to your place,” she nodded.
She was not quite sure how Greg would react to the change of topic, but she felt like she needed to bring it up before they would go over to more enjoyable things. She did not want to ruin the mood later on and hoped she was not doing it now. She did not really want to fight, even though she preferred it over the unbearable silence of the last few weeks, a silence that had not even resulted from any fighting.
“Are you scheduled to testify again?” she asked quietly, avoiding looking into his eyes again. She could see though that he was nodding seriously.
“Yeah. I still have to testify about the day when Charlie came to my place.” That were completely different memories connected with Greg’s apartment, unpleasant ones that they both had tried hard to forget.
“Me too,” she said. She would have to talk about that day as well. As if she had not done enough damage so far. How would it be conceived that she had been threatened again, this time at Greg’s place? Of course, there was still Brass who would testify as well. He had heard what had been going on, even though this had been rather ambiguous.
“Hey, I told you not the worry about it,” Greg said, taking her hand. It was much warmer than hers. “And no matter what that lawyer says, they’re not treating me as a suspect. They know it was Charlie’s doing.”
He squeezed her hand and Sara was looking at it and no matter what she had felt before, she felt gloomy now, and although she tried to stop it, she felt the tears coming up into her eyes and rolling down her cheeks. It was the way Greg was saying it. That he was not treated as a suspect. Why would he? He had not done anything bad. The thought that he considered it positive that he was not yet treated in a way that would be wrong, just made her cry, wondering what she would do, if it happened after all, after everything Charlie’s lawyer had said, after everything she had said.
“Hey, Sara…” Greg started softly, but Sara jumped up, muttering, “Restroom.” and dashed off. She hurried into the restroom, and was relieved that nobody else was in there who would see her tearstained face.
Talk about ruining the mood. Why had she brought up the topic? She had thought that they would maybe fight, she just had not thought that she would fall apart in this way. What would Greg be thinking? That she was unhappy in his company? That she was unhappy that they were not treating him as a suspect? Sara chuckled sadly. No, Greg would not come up with ridiculous thoughts like the latter. The former was very probable though.
She rubbed her face with her handkerchief. Maybe she was also crying because she was happy. Happy that she and Greg seemed to be fine. Happy and afraid that everything good might end too soon again.
TBC