Don't worry, my memory sucks sometimes too... :lol:
Yeah, she definitely confuses a lot of people... as well as aggravates them. :lol:
This chapter's a little longer... a lot happens in it lol. Also, this is kind of a rough chapter... discusses Mia's past and includes mentions of violence, sexual assault, and other things. Ryan Wolfe also makes a cameo in this chapter. Danny Messer and Lieutenant Steve Sloan (from Diagnosis Murder) get a mention... lol So, enjoy.
*~*~*~*
Chapter 8: Drunken Heart-to-Hearts in Santa Monica
After dinner, Mia and Greg stood around at cocktail hour, mingling with other members of their profession. She was in her usual form, Greg realized, as she held her fourth glass of champagne in her right hand while her left hand held her pocket book. Greg’s hands were in his jacket pocket before he took them out to readjust his tie as he chatted amicably with his colleagues. Mia rolled her eyes before handing Greg her glass as she continued talking, fixing Greg’s tie for him. She took her glass back as he smiled. “Thanks,” he said softly.
“Don’t mention it,” she replied, finishing her glass and readjusting her deep purple, low cut, floor length, sleeveless dress with rhinestone trim. Easily, she was the hit of the party, getting a lot of requests to ‘swap DNA’ and other cheesy pick up lines. She tossed her hair over her shoulder, the curls she put in bouncing gently. Greg smiled inwardly, gazing at her beauty as he talked quietly with those around him. Her phone rang, snapping him out of his daze. She excused herself quietly before stepping away a bit. “Salvatori,” she answered. She listened for a moment, and Greg watched as she grew agitated and walked away.
“What’s her deal?” Ryan Wolfe, a CSI for Miami-Dade County, asked.
“Damned if I know,” Greg replied, watching her.
“She’s a piece of work, huh?” Greg shrugged, still watching her.
“She’s good with victims.”
“She’s a bitch. How can she be good with victims?”
“She has some humanity. You don’t know her, Ryan.”
“Yeah, I don’t, but I don’t exactly want to, either.” Greg shrugged again, still watching her.
“Your loss, man.”
*~*~*~*
“Salvatori,” Mia answered.
“Hey baby,” Hodges replied. Mia clenched her fists and started to walk away. “Missing me yet?”
“No, and I never will.”
“Oh, now that’s harsh.”
“You deserve it, you jackass.”
“Babe, the only thing I ever did was love you.”
“You never loved me, you jerk.”
“I did too. I never meant to hurt you, Mia.”
“Yeah, right. Like I believe that. Go to hell, David.”
“After all I did for you, all I gave you, you treat me like this?”
“David, the only thing you ever gave me was a hard time and a pain in the ass. I thought I already made this clear to you. I don’t want to see or talk to you outside of work, ever. And at work, the best you can hope for is civility. Nothing more, ever. Understand now?”
“No. I don’t get why you hate me.”
“You know what you did.”
“I’ve tried apologizing, and you either blow me off or don’t accept it. Why?”
“Because you don’t get it. You want a second chance with me, but you don’t understand that we can’t just go back. You can’t just apologize and go back.”
“But I love you.” She scoffed.
“You hurt me, David. And actually, to you, love is a lie that gets people to fall into bed with you so you can fulfill your sexual quota. And then when you’re done, you dump them either for someone else or just to be a miserable ass. You only care about yourself and your own interest. You only love yourself.”
“I do not.”
“You do too! And honestly, I can see why you would have to love yourself- because no one else will!”
“Hmm, sounds like you.”
“Not really. I don’t use people for my own personal gain like you do. And… you know what? I’m done with this conversation. It’s a waste of my time and breath.”
“What? We’re not-” She hung up, stalking back toward Greg in fury.
“Here,” she groaned loudly, handing him her phone. He fumbled with it in his hands for a minute, almost dropping it on the floor.
“What do I want this for?” he asked, annoyed. Ryan shot him a ‘better you than me’ look as he smiled.
“I want you to fucking hold it for me, dumbass. That way there, if I get another phone call, I won’t have to answer it. I don’t care who’s calling me, I’m not answering it.” Greg nodded, seeing past her anger to the underlying disturbance. He tucked her phone into his pocket before gently reaching out and grabbing her bare arm.
“You okay?” His voice was gentle and soft, causing her to sigh.
“Not really.” Her honesty surprised both of them, and she quickly chalked it up to the champagne earlier. He nodded.
“You wanna leave?” She looked around for a moment before nodding. He put his arm gently around her waist, silently apologizing to Ryan as he left. Ryan shrugged, walking away to find Danny Messer, a CSI from New York.
*~*~*~*
Greg opened the door to their suite for Mia as she remained silent, cursing herself for being weak in front of him. She found that tonight, she couldn’t help herself. She was buzzed, and would probably be doing and saying a lot of things she’d regret later. She sat on the couch, and Greg sat on the chair opposite her, grabbing the room service menu and looking at her. Shrugging, she figured that if she were going to be open, she’d need to be more drunk than she already was. “Let’s get drunk,” she told him. He nodded.
“What do you like?” he asked, his voice still gentle. She figured if she wasn’t so rattled by the constant annoyance that was David Hodges, she’d be angered by his tone.
“Scotch, gin, vodka. Anything hard.” He smirked, and she shook her head. “Die, pervert.”
“Sorry, became a teenager again for a moment. Mixers?”
“If you’re getting vodka, get orange juice. If gin or scotch, nothing.”
“Alright. Anything to eat?”
“Doesn’t matter.” He nodded, ordering scotch and mozzarella sticks as she moved to sit at her computer. She opened her email and groaned as Greg hung up. “I need my phone back,” she growled at him.
“Why?” he asked softly.
“Because I need to chew David a new one.”
“Who?” She sighed.
“Hodges. Sorry.”
“Why?”
“Because he won’t leave me alone! He keeps calling me, emailing me, just generally bugging the hell out of me! He even showed up at my door one night.”
“Why?” She looked over at him angrily. “He’s usually not so obsessive without a reason.”
“Him and I have a history.”
“Ah.” She furrowed her brows.
“And just what is that supposed to mean?”
“Nothing. Just, everything between the two of you makes so much more sense.” She sighed, calming a bit.
“He won’t just let it go.”
“Have you?” She looked at him like he had five heads.
“What?” Room service arrived at the door, and Greg stood up.
“Have you let it go?” She was silent as he took care of the man at the door, taking the time to think about his question.
“They have bottles of scotch on room service?” she asked, deciding to ignore it as Greg closed the door.
“My friend’s family owns the place,” he explained, sitting back in the chair as she moved to the couch again. “I get what I want.”
“Connections are great, aren’t they?”
“Definitely.” He opened the bottle, passing it to her. She put ice in her glass before pouring herself a double.
“Do you have to pay for this?”
“Nope.” She tilted her head.
“Where did you meet this friend?”
“College.”
“What do you have on him?” Greg laughed heartily, pouring himself a single scotch on the rocks.
“Nothing.”
“Seriously?”
“Yep.”
“Wow.” She sipped her drink. “I wish I had friends like that.”
“Maybe you just need to make better ones.”
“Right. We both know how much people adore me.” She took a long drink from her glass before sighing. He watched her intently, sipping his own drink. “Am I your science project?” she asked after a moment.
“Huh?” he replied, confused.
“You keep staring at me.”
“Oh. Well, uh, I was, uh…”
“Wondering what makes me tick.”
“Something like that.” She finished her glass and poured herself another.
“I’ve never met my biological father,” she began. He arched his eyebrows at her confession. “I’m not using that as an excuse or anything. I’m just making a blanket, beginning statement. My mother used to tell me the reason I’d never met my father was because he was an ass and left. My stepfather used to tell me it was because no one really wanted me. I’ve come to realize, though, that he probably doesn’t even know I exist, if he’s still alive. Because what father would just up and abandon their daughter like that? Although my mom could be right, but that’s neither here nor there.
“I lived with my mom growing up, and she got married to Fred when I was five or so,” she continued. “After their marriage, I was sent off to boarding school in Italy, where I lived for about ten or so months each year. Made a lot of close friends that I still have to this day.” She chuckled, and he continued to watch her. “I missed my mom a lot, though. Hated Fred.” He nodded as she shook her head. “He was the one who initiated the boarding school thing. Mom didn’t even seem to care.”
“I’m sure she cared,” Greg said softly. Mia shrugged, taking a drink.
“She did, when he wasn’t around. He hated me, though, so when he was around, I didn’t exist. I was an only child, and as far as I know, I still am, biologically speaking. But otherwise… well, I’ll get to that later. Fred was impotent, so he and Mom weren’t having kids, and Fred was really okay with that. Guess he hated the idea of parenthood. But anyway, I can’t say Italy was all bad. Every weekend, we’d travel somewhere on the continent. We’d spend Saturday nights in that place, and we learned to pick up the languages after a couple visits. That’s how I became fluent in French, Italian, Spanish, German, Russian, Dutch, Portuguese, Japanese, and Chinese. I was already fluent in English.”
“Wow.”
“I speak France’s French, Spain’s Spanish, Portugal’s Portuguese, and Mandarin Chinese. And there’s a pretty big difference.”
“I know.”
“Right. Anyway, when I was eight, I got word of a phone call from a Lieutenant Steve Sloan, saying that my mom and stepfather were killed in a car accident. I was sent home from school pretty quickly, and two CSIs picked me up from the airport. He doesn’t remember it now, but I remember Grissom and his partner, Kelly, picked me up. They stayed with me until the social worker brought me into foster care. I stayed in the system for ten years. Had twenty foster siblings in that time in eighteen different homes. The last place I was in, I was there for two years. The woman was so amazing. And I still kept in touch with my friends from boarding school. But in the homes and in L.A., I was having trouble.
“I wasn’t always like this,” she continued after taking a drink. “I was a good kid, very friendly and cheerful, loved everyone. And then I got to public school, and was picked on, pushed around, stepped on, beat up. I toughened up. I entered high school and wasn’t bad like this. In fact, I was really naïve. The first guy I was with…” She paused, taking a long drink. He sipped his, thinking of all the potential ways this could go, and none of them were good. “The first guy I was with took advantage of that. He convinced me to do things that I normally wouldn’t have, but I didn’t know any better. I just wanted to make him happy, so I did whatever it took, even if it made me uncomfortable. After we broke up, I realized that he was actually abusing me like that. I vowed never to let my guard down like that again. I’d never let anyone take advantage of me again.
“That vow was broken one night in college,” Mia said. Greg stayed where he was as she half-drunkenly pulled her knees to her chest. “I was a freshman in a sorority, and we were having a social with one of the fraternities. I ended up getting drugged and raped.” She fell silent for a moment, resting her chin on her knees. He reached his hand out to her gently, and she took it.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
“It’s in the past. But after that, I knew I couldn’t continue in that sorority and at that college, so I transferred into another one. And I became… well, a lot like this. I still had some humanity, more than I do now, but I was pretty much like this. I’ve been told by my friends that maybe if I had gotten better help or whatever, I wouldn’t be this bad. She shrugged, taking a drink. “Doesn’t matter now, though.”
“What do you mean, you wouldn’t be this bad?” She sighed.
“I go out of my way sometimes to make people hate me. Like Nick.”
“Why do you want Nick to hate you?”
“Nick was in a fraternity. I don’t care that it was years ago, and I don’t care how much he’s changed. I don’t want him to like me, because if he likes me, he might hurt me. I’ve been kicked around so many times you’d think I was a fucking soccer ball at the World Cup. I couldn’t take it any more, so I turned myself into this hardened bitch before you.”
“You can change.” She shook her head.
“Greg, honey, there’s no hope anymore. It’s too late, and too much has happened.”
“Mia, it’s never too late.”
“Yeah, it kinda is.”
“You’re 26. You have a lot of your life left. You can change if you try and if you have the right support base around you. Maybe your friends are right. Maybe if you did have some help, you’d better move on. It’s something that can be changed, though, Mia. It’s not too late.” She sighed.
“I don’t want to talk about this anymore.” He nodded.
“I respect that.” She squeezed his hand gently, still holding onto it from earlier. He moved next to her, pulling her gently against his chest. She hugged him tightly, the alcohol and conversation making her actually clingy. He held her gently, and she felt tears sting her eyes as Greg held onto her. Her breath grew shaky as she thought of all the things she had confessed to him. The tears began to fall, and he held her closer, allowing her to cry on his shoulder. He soothed her softly, rubbing her back as she calmed down.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered. He shook his head.
“You don’t have anything to be sorry about,” he told her. “It’s okay. You’re human.” She chuckled bitterly.
“Right.” She stayed in his arms, closing her eyes gently and breathing in his scent. He continued to rub small, soft circles into her back, soothing her. “Greg?” she asked softly.
“Yes?” he replied, just as soft.
“Two things. One, don’t ever mention this to anyone, and two, I don’t feel too good.” He chuckled.
“Glad you have your priorities straight. You have my word, and how do you feel? Nauseous? Dizzy?”
“Nauseous and tired. And dizzy.” He nodded.
“Okay. Let’s get you up and in bed, okay?” She nodded slowly, leaning against him somewhat as he lead her into her bedroom. She lay down on the bed, and he sat beside her. She pulled her shoes off as he handed her pajamas to her, causing her to shoot him a dirty look.
“Am I supposed to change with you in the room?” she asked. His eyes went wide with shock, because it was something he never thought of.
“Absolutely not,” he told her, standing. She chuckled, shaking her head.
“I’m kidding, Sanders.” She pulled her pants on under her skirt and put the shirt on over her dress before unzipping herself and pulling off her dress. He watched in amazement, causing her to chuckle. “I learned a lot in high school.”
“Uh, huh.” She curled up in the bed, and Greg sat down beside her again. Both of them mildly intoxicated, she grabbed his hand and pulled him down beside her. He took off his jacket and shoes, and she wrapped her arms around him, putting her head on his chest.
“I’m not sure why I’m doing this, but I feel like…”
“It’s okay,” Greg interrupted. “I understand without you trying to explain it.” She nodded, snuggling closer. “It’s the alcohol. Makes you open. Then you talk, and you feel vulnerable, which makes you feel like being held.” She nodded.
“Something like that.” She closed her eyes. “Hey, Greg?”
“Yeah?”
“Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.” She kept her eyes closed, yawning as she started to grow tired.
“Do me a favor.”
“What’s that?”
“Make the world stop spinning.” He sighed, growing nervous that she’d over done it.
“I can’t do that. Are you really feeling that bad?”
“No, but it’s fun to freak you out.” He chuckled, shaking his head.
“Thanks.”
“No problem. But, seriously, do me a favor.”
“What’s that?”
“Don’t move.” He smiled.
“I was hoping you’d say that, because I don’t know how well I’d do trying to make it back to the other room.” She chuckled softly, yawning again. He yawned, pulling her closer. Within minutes, the two of them were fast asleep.