Loss of a member

i didn't know Jen online that much, but her presence was always visible to me. it was also her artwork that fascinated me and why i started to make icons. i benefited a lot through her icon tutorials as well. she'll be greatly missed, and with her a part of this board will be gone.

Rest In Peace. i'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

 

I have never set foot in this thread before nor in the fan art area at large. But one of my most greatest friends Speedcochrane told me of TM's passing and as CSI_In_Training said she herd from me. To me CSIfiles isn't just a community of people sharing their love for something so great, but it is a family. Once joining this site you become a part of the family and I know everyone on here tries hard as they can to help each other out. I never knew TM but when Speedcochrane told me... I broke into tears. The stupidity that one person has, caused all of us here on CSIfiles to lose a loved one in a sense. Becs If one thing can be stated at her funeral please state how Jen was not just another person in this world, going through the normal bump and grind of life. She was a talented young woman who helped us all in her ways and cherished all of us, wether she knew us or not. Today after school me and CSI_In_training sat at our bus stop waiting for the bus, crying over the loss of a loved one to us. If I could do one thing I wish I had come here sooner and gotten to know Jen. And please Like my friend said, wear green tomorrow in memory of Jen. Me and CSI_In_training are also wearing MADD ribbons on us as well. If only we as a society could think for once before making a stupid choice of getting behind a wheel of a vechile.

R.I.P Jen, may you find happiness where ever you have gone. And may my most sincere condolences be with her family and friends.

Today here I have talked beyond my years of the age of 16, but the thought that someone can be so selfish, to take anothers life because like stated before they couldn't call a cab, angers me and saddens me. My dad drives after drinking and although he is my flesh and blood i hate him for it. I have truly gotten a eye opening experience from this and will fight to stop this happening no matter what it takes.

Jaci Peterson
Calgary Alberta Canada
Age 16

 

I didn't know her that well, but my thoughts and prayers are with her family.It's horrible to lose someone so young and full of life, and you know, she'll be watching over us.

vexus
Dana

 

Jennifer was a very creative and talented person. My thoughts and prayers are with her family.

 

rest in peace, Jen. I didn't know you very well, but you were an awesome person and your love of Eddie Cahill and Rosario Dawson will be missed.

 

Two of my favorite poems Both were read at my mother and brothers funeral.

A Million times i've needed you,
A million times i've cried,
If love alone could have saved you,
you never would have died.
in life i loved you dearly,
in death i love you still,
in my heart you hold a place,
no one else can ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
but you did not go alone,
for apart of me went with you,
the day god took you home.

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Do not stand at my grave and forever weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn’s rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and forever cry.
I am not there.
I did not die

I know they are old poems but I don't know, it's like they never fade.

 

Destiny, those are beautiful poems, ones that truely say what we're all feeling.
For the first time today, I cried real tears of loss and regret. I regret that I didn't get to know Jen, even though I saw her on the New York thread and when I was scanning the Fan art. I regret that I don't know a lot of people very well and it hurts to loose someone even if I didn't know her that well. I keep coming back here, thinking that things could've, no should've, been different. My heart goes out to everyone here, and Jen's family. We're always here for you.

 

Destiny, thank you for sharing those.

The first one expresses exactly what Im feeling but haven't been able to say. So again, thank you.

 

Oh wow, I'm am so sorry to hear this. My condolences to her friends and family. She was definetly an inspiration, inspiring me to make my own art. Her artwork was some of the best I've seen on the web. I'll surely miss you, rest in peace.

 

Thank you Destiny, for sharing those beautiful poems.

I still cannot believe she's gone.

What a wonderful young woman. She was taken far too soon.

Jen, may the Angels hold you in their arms, and never let you go.

Me and my entire youth group will be praying for you and for those you left behind.

To Jen's family: Stay strong, and try to remember that she fought so, so hard, but that God just needed her back so badly that he had to take her, hard as it may be for us to accept.

Jen, we love and miss you.

 

OMG, I just saw this-how gawd awful- and sad- I'm sickned by this news, she was amazing, and so fair and so nice- lord have mercy- RIP and I loved her screen name-unique :

And Destiny the 1st poem tore me up- inspiring, and compelling-

 

Oh my goodness, this is so horrible and shocking to hear. Such a terrible loss of a wonderful person, who meant a lot to this community. We'll miss you, tuesday.

 

This is such sad news! My thoughts and prayers are with her family and friends.
Rest In Peace, Jen.



Crossing The Bar- Tennyson
Sunset and evening star,
And one clear call for me!
And may there be no moaning of the bar,
When I put out to sea,
But such a tide as moving seems asleep,
Too full for sound and foam,
When that which drew from out the boundless deep
Turns again home.
Twilight and evening bell,
And after that the dark!
And may there be no sadness of farewell,
When I embark;
For tho’ from out our bourne of Time and Place
The flood may bear me far,
I hope to see my Pilot face to face
When I have crossed the bar.

 

This is a translation from a Finnish song, I tried my best to translate it.



Again you see the light in the horizon, it seperates the day from the night.
It's time to give away the one, who you love so much
With our senses we understand, why one leaves and other stays.
But the little child inside us, cannot understand it.
Have a good journey, have a good journey.
Walk with the angel.

So many times to this beach
we've come before.
Leaved two pairs of steps in the sand
now only one pair goes back.

So have a good journey, my friend
I don't say more
You know the most important,
and that's enough
Nothing else matters anymore.

Have a good journey, have a good journey.
Walk with the angel.

 

Unfortunately I'm not really good with poems, so like DaWacko's this is in song form. I know that Jen was a big Michelle Branch fan, so I picked something by her that seemed appropriate.


Goodbye To You by Michelle Branch ~

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star.