CSI:NY The family she never had...

didn't the resume give you a hint?
Well here comes the next chapter, (and as NattyBatty says: Kleenex might be needed.)

Chapter 11. A mothers worst fear.

They had been sitting in Macs office for nearly 3 hours. “You should go home, spend some time, relax, it’s just making it worse for you to sit here and hear everything.” Mac looked at them, Flack nodded, Stella really didn’t want to leave, “But Mac, it’s my baby girl were talking about!” Flack took her hand, “Lets go home, its better there.” The look on his face convinced her that it was probably best. Stella carried her half-sleeping Rebecca to the car.

At around 4Pm she woke up by someone knocking at the door, she went to check if her angel still were a sleep before she went to open the door.

It was Mac, he was crying, “Stella, I was called to a crime scene, and…” He took a deep breath, but she kind of knew were he was headed, she felt the tears stream down her cheek as he continued: “It was Penny… she’s gone.” He was unable to say anymore. Stella fell, she was just sitting there on the floor, crying like she would never be able to stop.

Flack had heard them, but the minute her saw her sitting there crying, he knew what was going on, she could tell by the look in his eyes. He went to her, sat down next to her and held his arms around her.

“She’s gone?” He asked Mac, who nodded slowly. Stella moved closer to Flack, right now she really needed to feel that he was there for her, even without Penny.

He kissed her hair, then she heard tiny footsteps as Rebecca came out in the hallway, “Mommy?” Stella pulled herself together and went to her daughter, she hugged her. “Baby? Penny… She wont come back to us.” She saw how Rebecca started to cry and asked: “But, she can visit us, okay?” Stella smiled “I’m afraid not baby, but one day, you well get to heaven were she is now, with all the other angels.” Rebecca smiled, as she hugged her mother again, “don’t cry mommy, is not your fault.”

She loved Rebecca even more now, she promised herself never to let anything happen to her. She felt like this was the end of everything, but she would fight, fight to get through this! For Flack and Rebecca! They needed her, and she needed them, more than anything now.

Even though she wanted to be strong, she felt that she would never be able to live life at the fullest anymore. The only thing keeping her sane right now, was her daughter and Flack. Their family might have lost a very precious part, but they would still fight on, for Penny’s sake.
 
Chapter 12. Learning to let go.

She was standing outside the ME’s office, she figured that she had to talk to Sid about this sooner or later, he loved Penny nearly as much as she did. She was holding that purple horse, that Sid gave Penny at her 2nd birthday, she wanted Sid to have it, to remind him of her.

She had practiced several times what to say, and what to do, but the fact is, she had no clue.
It had only been 2 days since her angel was found stabbed, by stabbing Penny, her killer had stabbed the entire team in their hearts.

The killer had turned him self in earlier that day, her and Flack had brought Rebecca there, to identify him, she was absolutely sure that it was the guy. He turned him self in, because he wanted her to know, that killing her daughter was his revenge, Stella had locked his sister up for murder 2 years ago, she killed herself. And he wanted Stella to feel the same pain.

The tears were once again running down her cheeks, she hugged the little horse and went inside to find Sid. He was sitting on the floor crying, holding a picture of him and the two girls, it was taken a day he brought them to the zoo, Penny had loved the elephants.

Stella knocked at the door, “Sid?” He looked at her, wiped a tear of his cheek, “Oh, Stella, hi.” He tried to smile, “How are you doing?” She returned his smile, “As good as I can, I suppose.” She kept thinking of her little girl, she hoped that she were in a better place now.

She wiped the tears of her cheek again, but it didn’t help much, as another one just fell. “Sid… I wanted you to have this, I know how special Penny was to you.” She handed him the little horse, he hugged her, “Thank you Stella, I really appreciate it, I miss having her around you know, it’s not that I don’t love Rebecca, I really do, but it’s just not the same when she’s the only one.”

Stella felt the hopelessness fill her heart again, the only thing that made her keep on fighting was Flack, Rebecca and the huge support from all of their friends. “I know Sid, I miss her too…” She sat down at the floor, so did Sid, he held his arm around her as she continued: “I miss everything about her, I miss the way her and Becca always pushed Flack on the floor as they came to our bed at night, I miss hearing her laugh and sing with her sister, she had a wonderful voice, just like Becca. I just want her back Sid.” She took a short break. “I keep asking my self; why didn’t I protect her?”

Sid stroked her shoulder, “Stella, you can’t blame yourself, you said bye to your girls and watched them go to school for the first time. Penny once said: ‘My mommy says that I am as strong as I want to be, I love my mommy, she takes care of me.!’ Don’t blame yourself Stella.”

He tried to smile as she said: “I can’t help it Sid, she was my little girl!” She moved a little closer to him and buried her face in his shoulder, “She was my baby Sid!” He stroked her hair, “We will all get through this together, I know it’s though, we all loved her, but we are here for you.”

Stella knew that the team would always be there for her and her family, but it felt great to hear someone say it. Honestly her and Flack hadn’t spoken much since they lost Penelope, they both missed her so much, Flack just had a different way of dealing with it.
 
Here comes one of my favourite chapters.

Chapter 13. You’ll Be in my heart.

The sun was shining over New York that day, they were standing around the tiny grave, listening to Stella’s fabulous voice, as she was singing a final goodbye to her beloved daughter Penelope.

“Come stop your crying, it will be all right.
Just take my hand, hold it tight.
I will protect you, from all around you.
I will be here, don’t you cry.”

It was the first time Stella had been singing in public, but Penelope deserved it, she felt the tears fall silent down her cheek, but she wanted this to be perfect for her daughter.

“For one so small, you seem so strong.
My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm.
This bond between us, cant be broken.
I will be here, don’t you cry.”

She saw how everybody’s eyes filled with tears as Rebecca was singing the chorus, her voice was as fabulous as Stella’s.

“cause’ you’ll be in my heart,
Yes you’ll be in my heart.
From this day on,
Now and forever more.
You’ll be in my heart,
No matter what they say.
You’ll be in my heart,
Always!”

Sid’s eyes were filled with tears, but they were also shining of pride, he loved Rebecca. Stella felt how something in her daughters voice made her confident that they would pull through this, if they fought together. As the chorus ended Stella was singing again.

At the end of the song, she couldn’t keep her tears back anymore, she took Rebecca in her arms and kissed her hair.

Flack placed his arm around Stella’s shoulders, as she threw a perfect red rose in to the grave, she saw how it fell until it landed peacefully on top of the coffin. The others did the same, and then they left to give the family a moment alone to say goodbye.

Stella kneeled next to the grave;
“The last 5 years have been the best of my life, thanks to you, your sister and your daddy. And I didn’t want it to end like this, because you are a perfect little miracle, you have lightened up everybody’s life. I Love you Penny, and I miss you. So does Uncle Hawk, Uncle Danny, Uncle Adam, Auntie Lindsay, Boss and of course Grandpa. I’m so sorry it had to end like this baby. I hope you are well were you are now. I will love you forever, and miss you always, Penelope Bonasera Flack. Goodbye love.”

Rebecca hugged her mother before she cried:
“Penny, you are my bestest sister, maybe you can come visit me some day? Mommy and Daddy says that one day I will come to heaven where you are. I will take care of them for you, they miss you so much… Mommy thinks that it is her fault, can you tell her is not!” She wiped her tears and said: “Come back Penny, please!”

Flack kissed Rebecca’s forehead before he kneeled and said:
“Hey Penny, the family isn’t going to be the same without you, I think of you every day, I think about that moment, when the nurse handed you to me when you were just born, you were so beautiful, I knew you would grow up to be as pretty as your mommy. We miss you kid. I am so happy that I have your sister, and your mommy to help me through this. Remember, we will never forget you, I love you Penny, and I will never be able to let go.”

He got up, they just stood there for a while. Stella felt the pain, her baby girl was down there, in a grave, she was only 5 years old. It just wasn’t fair! Flack placed his arm on her shoulder and whispered: “Time to go.”

They went towards the others, but Stella couldn’t imagine how she would ever be able to live her life without her dear Penny.
 
i think it will most likely be some time before i update again, i have a family dinner tomorrow, my 16th birthday tuesday, work wednesday thursday, holidays, you get the drill..
 
sorry for the lack of updates, here comes chapter 14 :D

Chapter 14 Life is precious.

“Come on Rebecca, don’t let go of my hand.” Stella was holding on tight to Rebecca’s hand, as they went inside the toy store. “Mommy, I can walk my self.” Rebecca was obviously embarrassed, holding her mom’s hand, Since that day a year ago, where she had lost Penny of sight for less than 30 seconds, she had been very protective about Rebecca, maybe a little overprotective, if she had to be honest.

“Stel, give her a break alright? She’s 6, I think she can find her way around in a toy store, that’s about the first thing a kid learns!” Flack looked at her, with a look he had used a lot the last 5 months, a very caring and protective look, but still saying “You are too much!”

She told Rebecca to stay close to them, as she continued her conversation with her fiancée; “I’m sorry, but I don’t want to lose her. ”
Flack wiped a tear of her cheek, “Stella, I know you feel that you should have protected her, but it wouldn’t have prevented it if you followed her all the way to the door that day, he would have found another opportunity anyway. Or even worse, he could have done something to you too! It was, and is very hard not to have Penny around, but do you think I would have done very well taking care of Rebecca myself?”

Stella knew that he was right, and she loved the way he always had hidden an I love you-message, in every conversation they had.

She laughed, “I don’t think she would mind eating pizza for dinner all the time. You are a great dad, you know that.” The fact is, that Flack wouldn’t be able to take care of her, because of his work, they had to plan their shifts so that one of them were home with her at night, it was quite hard making things work, and she were with Stella at work a lot, she had no idea how it would work in their family, if they hadn’t had this great secretary at the lab, Angie was so great at taking care of Rebecca.

They laughed together, they hadn’t been laughing much lately.

“Mommy? Can I have dat one?” Rebecca pointed at a children’s microphone. She loved singing, Stella were so proud of her, she always talked about how she wanted to be a singer when she grew up.

“Sure baby, if you promise me that you will sing a song for me tonight?” She smiled, she knew that Rebecca wouldn’t only sing one song for her, she would sing at least a thousand.
Rebecca’s eyes were shining, “I promise mommy.”

As they walked out the store Flack whispered: “You realise that we will have to listen to her until that thing breaks?” She punched him at the shoulder. “Then I will go buy her a new one.”
 
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Omg, I missed a fanfiction. Even though I'm not a Flack/Stella shipper I do love this story. Bonasera, you're doing great. Update soon. And thanks for the push Chipmunk :lol:
 
I'm glad you like it, i was actually planning on ending the story at chapter 15, but i'm still not sure, who knows,

I'm not a Flack/Stella shipper either, i will always be infected with the happy penguin family, i mean SMACKY family anyway :D just thought it could be fun to try something new, just hate the fact that im not able to stretch my stories, i can in danish, but my english isn't that great, or my written english isn't, it seems that i speak way better than i write, i really have to brag now, with my A in english at my exams: Sorry i just had to tell. Anyway, i'm working on it.
 
Yayyy lovely update!!:bolian::bolian::drool:especially the ending made me smile ;)
I'm not a Flack/Stella shipper either, i will always be infected with the happy penguin family,
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Hehe me, too *:guffaw:*
 
All right then, here goes the temporary ending, im still not sure if im actually going to end the story here.

Chapter 15 Ave Maria

2 years ago, she wouldn’t have imagined this day without her beloved Penelope. But here she was, with Sid, waiting to walk down the isle. She were so nervous, she had been with Flack for more than 7 years, but today was the day.

Rebecca was walking in front of her in a cute white dress, with a pink bow around the waist, she were so gorgeous. Her own dress was a slim white dress, with tiny shimmering gems on the strap around her neck.

As the music started, she walked through the huge door in the back of the church, Rebecca was walking in front of her, smiling, throwing rose pedals on the floor, she loved the attention, and she was quite used to it.

As Stella was walking elegantly towards her husband-to be, she felt her heart beat faster with every step, just before she stopped next to him, she sent a loving thought to Penny, she would have loved to be there.

She was standing next to Don, when Lindsay came and gave Rebecca a microphone, Rebecca walked to a tiny stage there had been set up in the church, as the music started, Stella heard her adorable daughters even more adorable voice:
“Ave Maria
Gratia plena
Maria, gratia plena
Maria, gratia plena
Ave, ave dominus
Dominus tecum
Benedicta tu in mulieribus
Et benedictus
Et benedictus fructus ventris
Ventris tuae, Jesus.
Ave Maria”​
Stella felt a tear running silently down her cheek, she were so proud of her daughter, at the age of 7, she achieved to stand in a church an sing Ave Maria perfectly. She were going to get back at Lindsay for surprising her like this. It wasn’t even planned!]
“Ave Maria
Mater Dei
Ora pro nobis peccatoribus
Ora pro nobis
Ora, ora pro nobis peccatoribus
Nunc et in hora mortis
Et in hora mortis nostrae
Et in hora mortis nostrae
Et in hora mortis nostrae
Ave Maria”​
Everybody was crying when Rebecca finished her song, she had the most amazing voice. As Stella was standing there in the church, waiting for the ceremony, she remembered a night, where she was ill, and her two wonderful girls were sitting next to her bed singing Twinkle twinkle little star. Even though Penny was no longer there, she would never forget that night.

She had moved on now, her, Flack and Rebecca was going to live happily ever after, as the family she never had.

THE END (For now anyway)
 
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