Shattered Dreams (GSR)

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ilvelvegrissom

Hit and Run
Just the start of a little GSR fic I thought of, Hope its not too bad..... :)


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She smiled, as he slowly stroked her hair... They were so close she could feel the warmth from his body,
butterflies were dancing around in her stomach, he moved his hand until it was touching her cheek,
his touch was light and cool, and it made her heart flutter....

It had always been this way, Ever since the first moment she'd first seen him, the first moment she'd
heard his voice, the first time she'd felt his touch, he'd cast a spell over her, made her feel things she'd
never dreamed of feeling, he got her like no one else ever had and she never wanted to be far from him.....

And now here he was, looking deep into her eyes, she felt like he could see her soul, she wondered if he
could the scars no one else could, the ones that were deep inside, the ones that might never fade, burned into
her for all Eternity....
She knew even if he couldn't see them, he was there to save her, she could trust him, with all her soul....
It made her feel so special, the way in looked at her, like they were the only two people left in the World.....

And then he started to to lean forward, his scent a mixture of soap, lemons and cologne, surrounded her,
she was fighting hard to keep her head, but she was quickly losing herself,
to him...........
He murmured something inaudible, his voice heavy with lust and longing, it sent a shiver through her,
she stepped an inch closer until she was pressed up against him, hearts beating together,
he finally gave into it all, finally gave into her, pulling her to him, he pressed his lips to hers,
and it was everything she'd ever dreamed it'd be, it was beautiful, and perfect,
and suddenly everything in her World started to fall into place.........
She found herself wishing and praying for it never to end.......
Anyway for it,


***Phone Rings Loudly***


A sleepy Sara Sidle, awoke with a start, pulling herself up till she was sitting.
she ran her hand through her hair, trying to slow her breathing, she reached for the phone...
After speaking for a few short minutes, she
said goodbye and hung up the phone.....
She was mad, but wasn't sure if she was more mad at the phone call that had awoken her
from the most blissful dream, Or at the dream its self, she found herself cursing the hold
that Gil Grissom continued to have over her.....

She had to let go, she knew it, it was just easier said than done....
'He doesn't want you, She told herself.. He's made that more than clear, again and again....'
At that thought she felt her anger slip away, And then silent tears began to slip down her cheeks,
She felt so alone, pulling her knees up to her chest, she hugged her legs to her breast...

Something caught her eye and looking up, she found herself looking at her own reflection in the
mirror and even despite the tears now flowing freely down her face, she looked pretty,
her dark hair spilled over her shoulders in soft silky waves, her eyes were glistening with yet more
unshed tears, but they were bright, framed with long perfect dark lashes, and her lips, a light pink
in color, were now forming a sweet sad little pout.........
She mightn't feel great, but she wasn't half bad to look at.......
And with that thought she made a decision, she was going to change, no more 'poor victim
Sara Sidle, who needed to be saved ' ......
She was going to be a whole new person,
And this time Gil Grissom wouldn't be able to say No.........

She just had to help him realize that they were meant to be together,
because she knew with all her heart and soul that that was true.......


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This is my first ever try at a Fan Fic, so I'm sorry if its total rubbish,
I'd love hear your thoughts everybody....
Good or bad!!!!!!!
Thanks..... xxxxxxxx
 
Hey ilvelvegrissom
I think this story is off to a fantastic start! I didn't realise it was a dream wha a disappointment for Sara :( Can't wait for the next update to see what happens :D keep writing you're doing a great job :D
 
Wow, that was really good for a first fanfic. I'm in the middle of my first and I cannot help but stay away from major angst. :p

Good luck and please do continue.
 
haha Thanks! (or rather.. thanks to quoth_the_raven!) Grissom Withdrawals are definitely not fun :( But I look forward to the next chapter!
 
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He sat at his desk in his office, deep in thought, well half thinking half dreaming, he was meant to be working,
he had a back load of paper so big he was thinking of hiring someone just to sort it out!
But instead of working, he was watching Sara Sidle, through the window of his office,
He felt bad doing it, but once he started he couldn't take his eyes off her, he could look at her Forever,
Everything about her was perfect, her soft, shining, dark wavy hair, her little button nose, her big
sparkling eyes, her long long legs! The list was endless!
He had actually noticed something different about her lately, she seemed happier, more cheerful,
He'd liked it too, It just made her more beautiful to him.......
As he looked on, She started to laugh at something the other person was saying, she threw
her head back, laughter rippling across her face.....He felt his Heart tighten, Just looking at her...
She was so amazing, he loved every little thing about her, her laugh, her passion, her smile,
her pout, the sound of her voice...... He knew he sounded like a Love stricken teenager,
but he couldn't help it..........

Then the phone rung, interrupting his day dreams, frowning, he picked up the phone...
Hello?
After a few moments of listening, he calmly but with a concerned look upon his face,
asked - Is she okay?
And then all he said was - Oh...
A few short minutes later he hung up the phone and then he just sat there, staring into space............

And thats how Sara found him nearly a half an hour later, she'd spent ages thinking up a good
excuse to have to come and see him, but seeing the heart breaking look on his face, all other
thoughts flew from her mind... He didn't look up as she entered the room, or as she closed the door....
'Grissom?' she said in a soft voice.....
He looked up, as if waking from a daze,
'Oh Sara, I didn't hear
you come in...'
'I noticed that, she said, smiling,
moving closer to his desk.....
'Grissom, Are you okay.........?' You look like you've just seen a ghost, she spoke lightly with a smile
on her face, trying to somewhat lighten the mood in his office....
He looked up then, properly for the first time since she'd entered the room......
He looked so lost,
And it scared her....
This was Grissom! If he couldn't sort out whatever it was,
who could? She wasn't sure, but she knew she needed to try and help him, for all the times he'd being
there for her.....
but before she could think of something to do,
Grissom stood up....
And then spoke in a shaking voice - 'I just got a phone call from LV hospital, he paused for a moment,
looking away and then back at her,
My mother has had a heart attack......
She felt awful, thinking of her dumb comment about seeing ghost, when he had just gotten actual
bad news.....
'Is she okay?' Can I do anything?' I could drive you over to the hospital?' I could.........She trailed off,
seeing the look on his face..... 'Grissom.........?'

'She's dead........He said simply.....'

They stood in silence for what seemed like forever....
Sara had no idea what to do or say?
She wanted to go to him, wrap her arms around him, breathe him in, make his pain, her pain,
tell him everything would be okay, because together they would work it out................
But she couldn't move......

He spoke again, almost like he was trying to reassure her.... 'Its okay, they said it was quick and most
likely painless....Its the way she would have wanted to go...' His voice broke on the last word, and it broke her
heart a little....
She felt useless, she was no help at all, here he was on probably one of the worst days of his life,
and all she could do was stand there.....
'Comfort him, Do something, Anything!'
She moved forward, reaching out her hand... To do what, she wasn't sure? But she just couldn't do nothing any longer...

But when she was close enough to touch him, he moved away, speaking quickly, 'I'd better go to the hospital, I should be there with her.....'
'I'll come with you,' said Sara...
'No.. You should get back to work..
'I'm not on a case, I just pulled a double with Greg...'
'Even so theres no need, I'm fine', he said......He was clumsily trying to put on his coat, with his back to her,
he cursed the coat under his breath, he stopped for a second and tried in vain to stop his hands shaking.....
Then he felt a hand on his arm, gently turning him around, and he found himself face to face with Sara, she didn't look at him,
but instead she reached out and without saying a word, began to button up his coat carefully, then she picked up his scarf from the
desk, still not looking at him, she softly wrapped it around his neck, now he couldn't move..... Her hand brushed softly off his cheek,
never in his life before had he appreciated the sweetness of skin to skin, the softness of it, the smell, the warmth......
Then she looked him right in the eye, her face full of of tenderness, 'Let me come with you, Let me help you, Let me in...'
And all he could do was nod his head... 'Okay, she said smiling sweetly..... But I'm driving.....
and then more softly, 'Its going to be
okay, I promise.......

So together they left........

The drive to the hospital was quiet......
Thoughts were running through Sara's head at the speed of light...... Had he felt what she'd felt when she'd touched his cheek,
when she'd looked in to his eyes? her heart was beating so fast, she was afraid Grissom could hear it, it was pounding in her ears.....
After a moment she felt ashamed of herself...... Of course he hadn't felt the same, for one he'd make it clear he only saw her a friend
and two his mother had just died, for Gods sake, he was devastated.... God, Sara, have some empathy towards the man,
stop thinking about yourself for two seconds.......!!
She glanced over at Grissom, to find him looking at her, she jumped a little, wondering if what she'd been thinking was written all over
her face? She hoped not.... She could already feel her face going red at the thought.....
'Sara, Are you blushing?'
No!
'You know, I don't think I've ever seen you blush before!'
I'm not blushing!, she said again....
'Its okay, he said, placing his hand on her arm giving her a little reassuring kind of pat.... 'I think its very sweet....'

She was about to reply, but fall silent realizing they had arrived at the hospital.... Grissom had noticed too...
He turned to her and gave her a sad kind of smile... 'Thank you, I don't know what I would have done with out you this afternoon...
He paused.. 'Thank you Sara'
'You're welcome, she said softly......'
He moved to get out, saying 'I'll see you back at the lab later, Please don't tell anyone where I am...yet...'
'You don't want me to come with you?' She asked....
He looked like he did, but he shook his head, saying, 'I can take it from here....See you later and he stepped out of the jeep,
closing the door behind him...

She sat there for awhile, not really sure what to do... Should she listen to her heart or to his words??
Finally she decided, she'd go in and if she saw him she'd figured out what to do and if she didn't see him then so be it....


Grissom was trying hard to hold himself together, he was standing beside a bed, but he was on the outside of the curtain
that surrounded it......... He was alone in the room.. He knew his Mother was lying on the other side of those curtains,
but he couldn't move.... It's not like this was his first time seeing a dead body or anything.... It was just that once he saw her,
all hope it might have not happened or that this was all an awful dream was gone...... And he wasn't quite ready for that......

He started to back away, but then he felt a hand slip into his and he knew without having to look it was Sara, he knew her,
knew her scent, knew her touch, the feel of her hand.... He couldn't look at her, because he could feel tears in his eyes....
She didn't ask him to look at her, she seemed happy just to simply stand next to him...
And then she began to speak, in a low soft voice, and at that moment to his ears her voice was the sweetest thing he'd
ever heard...

'I know you said you were fine, but I thought about it and back at your office I asked you to let me help you, to let me in,
this is the same... let me be here for you the ways you've always been there for me...'
'I'm right here beside you, If you need me, I'm not going to leave you..'
In times of grief and sorrow, everybody needs somebody, let me be that person for you...
I'm right here to hold you, to take your grief and make it my own, because when you cry, I cry, when you hurt, I hurt,
But together we can try hold back the floods of tears and despair..........
Together we can make it through this........
She was silent for a moment and then she moved, stepping in front of him, still holding his hand, she looked into his eyes,
Everything about her in that moment was soft and gentle.....
He started to speak but she pressed a finger to his lips, shhhhhhhhh.... She slowly moved her finger across his cheek lightly
brushing away a tear, he hadn't even realized he'd started to cry and he felt ashamed but Sara's face was free from judgment
and full of love.....
'Sara', he said, and this time she didn't stop him. Thank you for being here, but I'm not sure what to do...? I'm not asking you
to wait around till I figure it out.... I'm not perfect.... I just want you to be happy.....

Grissom, shhhh...

No one said anything about being perfect, you come to Love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly....... I see you perfectly......

You make me happy, And I can wait forever by helping you to see that
I was meant for you and you were meant for me.....



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