Greg/Sara our sad love story

ericloca

ericloca

Lab Technician
A sad love story
First chapter

Love


Love ? What means love …? I know it’s not just a word , I know is more than that . And I don’t know what love is . Everybody says is a feeling , like thirst or hunger … my heart is telling me is more , much more than that . And I think I believe my heart . Because I see her every day . I watch her , I look at her and I don’t know how to say this to her . How you tell a girl you are in love with her ? I think he just loves me like a brother … but I don’t love her like that . I want her to understand me , but she’s too stubborn . Every time I try to tell her about what is here in my heart , she just … she just treats it like a joke . She really think that I see a sister every time I look at her ? That I was joking when she told mew she wants to kiss me ? She really thinks he loves him … but she doesn’t . I just know she doesn’t . It can’t be possible , I mean he’s a good guy but not the perfect person for here … that person is me .
Why can’t she see a lover in me ? I am too immature , too crazy ? Why ? Every second they look at each other breaks my heart … I think I am going to die if they do that thing more . I’m jealous . For the first time , I’m jealous on my boss . Because he has the only person that I wished , that I adored like this in my whole life . My sweet Sara . My angel . Ah , didn’t she realized that I loved her ? I really thought she loved me when she said she came there for me … when she defended me in front of Grissom . Am I cursed ? Am I ugly ? Am I a bad person ? Why can’t she feel for me what I feel for her ? Why can’s she be part of my love life ?
She likes him … or that’s what she tells us . That she found the person to spend all her life with . Grissom , he likes her , but … I just stay here , in my bed and cry , thinking how unlucky I am … everything was taken away from me because she is everything for me . I am looking on the window to see the park that’s in front of my house … so many couples of lovers , and my heart is breaking that I’m not one of them . I am not and I will probably never be .
I looked her today at work . She was smiling , she was happy with him … she was kissing him and my soul was bleeding … Nick , Warrick , Catherine congratulated them ,but I couldn’t stand the view anymore . I just couldn’t . Why ? Is he the only person who can make her happy ? He broke her heart several times before , and she’s still with him . Is like she’s looking for sufferance , for disaster . She really can’t understand that he’s only using her ? That he is using her to help himself not feeling old ? I think she doesn’t understand this . I look at the bottle in my hand and drank it all . Is better . I think I am falling asleep . I drank too much today , I think , because there are three empty bottles of whisky on the table . I shouldn’t have drink them all … but the pain was killing me . I feel that I’m tired , probably the side effect of the alcohol . I am going to sleep , maybe , later . A long and sad sleep , and I wish that tomorrow this would be just a dream . That I’ll wake up with her sleeping next to me . That I will feel her next to me , I will smell her beautiful scent . That she’ll never be with him …
I love her I whisper into my head before opening another bottle and taking a sip of whisky . I love her and I would do anything to make her feel good … even give up on her , if this would be enough to make her happy . I’d rather die than see her sad or crying . I’ll give my life only to know she’s okay .
 
Re: Greg/Sara our sad love story

I'll give my life only to know she's okay


Lifeless


She was looking at his lifeless face . His eyes were still opened , but there was no spark . No smile on his lips . Nothing . There was only blood , on his chest ., on his shirt . On hers as well . The life drained from his body .
She was still kneeling in front of him , holding firmly his hand in her own . It was the last time she could do that . He loved her , and she loved him too .But she didn’t tell him . He died for her and still she didn’t tell him what she really felt . And now he’ll never know . He died without hearing those two words that would have made him happy at least at the end of his life . She turned her head from the horrible view in front of her . She couldn’t stand it anymore , those dark brown eyes that were telling her over and over she was guilty . She looked at his eyes a last time . She just put her hand on his face and slowly closed his eyes .
And that was it ; everything was gone , her happiness , her whole life had been ruined . Because she was too coward to tell him those words … he told her at least a million times about the love in his heart , and she was too coward to tell him those words once … once before she’d lose him .
He gave his life to protect her , he had the possibility to save himself and he didn’t . And she knew he’d do it again . And not because he loved her , he’d do it because he was … he is a hero . She was a bastard , she just wanted to forget him and got together with Grissom . She wanted to feel happy , but she wasn’t at all with Gil . She was just lying .
And she was just standing there , near him and finally had the guts to whisper to him the words , but it was too late … the angel of death already came to take his soul , to take him away from her . She hated that ; she hated she couldn’t look at him anymore , she hated he wasn’t with her anymore … she felt like passing out .
She regained her strength . She lifted her weight on her feet . She brought her hands to her face and started crying . She felt guilty , because she just should have pushed him aside . But she didn’t , he just watched him giving up on his life just to give her the chance to live .
His heart stopped beating , but his words “I love you” were still echoing in her troubled mind . She was tired . Tired of life . She looked at the gun that was at her feet … maybe she should just put that to her head and pull the trigger . It would not hurt anymore . She just stared at the weapon … no , she threw it away … this is not the solution … her suicide would make his sacrifice worth nothing .
There , in front of him , in front of his dead body , she let her tears fall on the ground , on his face . She closed her eyes to think . To think about how life would have been if he would have been alive and there , with her … if that dead body wouldn’t have been his .
His last words were for her … he did everything for her and she didn’t do anything for him . She kneeled near him again and reached to touch his hair with her hand … his hair , his crazy hair … she rubbed his forehead , his eyes , his lips … she felt the vibration , the echo of his words … like his lips knew she was the one touching them . She rubbed slightly his cheek , cleaning the blood that was staining it . She then violently took his head in her hands , yelling :”Why was I so dumb ? Why was I so coward , tell me ! Why didn’t I tell you I love you ? Why ? Why do I am so cursed ?” . But he didn’t gave her answers . He couldn’t , but the expression on his face , he looked like he was sleeping , his eyes closed peacefully , just penetrated her mind , like a needle .
The clouds were gathering on the sky ; suddenly it became black and the warm summer rain started falling … every drop that was touching her made her body shiver . But she didn’t care . She was holding the only person she ever truly loved tightly in her arms and she never wanted to let him go . She didn’t want to risk loosing him again . The water was washing him , it was like even the rain wanted to help her , to comfort her .
Soon the police was going to come there , their colleagues ; and they were going to see them . They were just going to tell that he died in the line of duty and he’ll be another forgotten person , like many other dead people . They’ll make an autopsy on his body … no , she won’t let them . They were allowed to touch him . Only she could , only she .
She lowered her head and touched his lips wet with blood and rain with hers . It was their first and last kiss . A kiss he’ll never know about .
The sirens of the police car were approaching … they will ask her questions . How did he die ? He was shot in the chest … saving her . The bullet probably punctured his lung , because he coughed up blood before he died .
The guys were going to miss him … Warrick , Nick … maybe even Grissom . But they will never feel what she felt . They will never knew how much he suffered before he died . This was a secret , no one had to know , only her .
She’ll have to live all her life knowing that he died because of her … he died in her arms , telling her he loved her , waiting for the answer he never received ….
When they will come there they will find two bodies , his and his killer’s … but there were three deaths … because he took her soul with him in the second he took the last breath .
Now she wasn’t Sara anymore , she was just an ordinary woman . Sara was up there ,m in heaven , with the person she truly loved . Only the conscience was in that body , only the memories of a lost love , the one and only love of her life ….Greg Sanders who was now lying lifeless at her feet .
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Desperate and waiting, frozen to the core
Numb to this feeling, needing something more
All I keep thinking is where I need to be
All I can hope for is someone to take me away

Before you go you promise me something,
I need to know, will you leave me lifeless?
Leaving me lifeless

Will I bow down to this life that I live?
Will I find freedom or lose it all again?
All I keep thinking is where I need to be
All I can hope for is someone to take me away

Before you go you promise me something,
I need to know, will you leave me lifeless?
Time moves so slow, I'm waiting for something,
Waiting for something again

Will I fall away from you,
Feelings that I never knew
And I hope that I never fall away

Will I fall away from you,
Feelings that I never knew
And I hope that I never fall away

Before you go you promise me something,
I need to know, will you leave me lifeless?
Time moves so slow, I'm waiting for something,
Waiting for something

Leave me lifeless
Leave me lifeless
Leave me lifeless

THE END
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Wow , hope you liked it ! Please review !
 
Re: Greg/Sara our sad love story

I liked it a lot, though it was colored with sadness, the truth of Sara came though like looking thought glass.
 
Re: Greg/Sara our sad love story

The second story - The choice

The one and only love of my heart

I sit on the hard floor of my room . Is cold – I feel that way . After today , everything seems to have no meaning for me . I mean , I hate my life , is way too complicated , is just so horrible to be like me . To never know who your heart belongs to . To never find your place in one world , to have always to choose between two people . I don’t know what I am going to do . After all that I see , I really have to choose between them and it’s so hard . If I choose one , I’ll break the other’s heart . And I don’t want anyone to hate me . I see Greg looking at me when I stay with Griss ; I see Gil looking at me when I’m whit Greg . They are the two men that loves me . I love them both , maybe the same , but I really can’t choose one of them .
Griss is the one that inspires me safety , a loving heart . He’s a wonderful man , more amazing than anyone you can think of . He makes me feel loved , safe in his arms . Things I always missed as a child . Safety and love . Affection . I know he cares about me . I care about him too … I love him , but I don’t know if I love him like a lover or like the father I never had beside me .
Greg , he’s special . He makes me laugh , he makes me feel younger when I’m with him . He is the most adorable man I’ve ever met . So different from Gil … totally opposed to him . That’s why I love him too … because he is the only person that can make my tears turn into smile every time he looks at me . He just … I thought he was just weird and crazy , but after noticing him better , I saw that he kept himself like that just to draw people’s attention . That’s why I feel so good with him , he’s natural and happy all the time .
This is the biggest dilemma of my life . There are two guys that love me and I don’t know who’s better for me ? What should I choose ? Safety or happiness ? The young man or the older one ?
I close my eyes and try to think ; now I am in a relationship with Grissom , but when I see that look on Greg’s face my heart is breaking , my soul is hurting . I can’t stand seeing him like that . Since I announced all the lab I am with Gil , he never talks to me . He never jokes around me . He treats me like his colleague and nothing more . He just looks at me with his eyes like he is going to cry and say nothing … nothing at all . But his eyes tells me so much … the pain , the sufferance . He loves me , he told that to me several times before . But so did Griss . If I’d choose to break up , he’ll be sad … he’ll cry day and night and make me sad as well . And , if I would ever be with Greg , he’ll; feel hurt and betrayed … but Greg , doesn’t he deserve to be a little happy ?
I am only one person … and I cannot split in two . I just can’t and I am not able to see my heart’s wishes . I don’t know what she wants . I feel like crying every time I see Greg sad and his caring heart so full of hate . I blame myself for doing that to him . It’s my fault this things are happening . Only mine . Destroying the lives of two sweet caring men .
I have to think better what I want from my life … I remember Greg telling me that I make my own faith , that I hate to think more at me than to think at the others … . He was right .
I need to look at my feelings first . To see deep in my heart the true feelings that I have in there for each one of these wonderful men …
Because , if there is only one true love , then why I think I love two persons ? I need time to think and realize the real thing .
Do I love Grissom – or do I just think he’s my friend ?
Or Greg – he’s the love of my life or just a brother ?
There are the questions I have to find answers to .
 
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