luvcsimiami
Hit and Run
Hello All,
This is a short fan fiction for E/C revolving around episode 725 'Seeing Red' It's the first fic I've posted here and was feeling a little angsty so here goes and I hope you like it. It's all from Calleigh's point of view and if you all like it I may post one from Eric's so looking foward to comments and constructive criticism. My goal is to always keep the characters in character so let's see how you like it.
Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me, they belong to CSI Miami, Jerry Bruckheimer etc.
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Dissolution of Trust
Ok, you know that if you have talked to him, if you have helped him it makes you an accessory.
I know the law.
Do you? I mean do you really?
Let’s talk about this later.
Over and over the conversation replayed in her mind like a recording. The record was stuck in the same spot and it was all she could hear. Her heart actually hurt from the pain, the anger, the despair, the anxiety she was feeling about all that had happened that day.
Everything that could have gone wrong had managed to go horribly wrong. Not only had she comprised her own judgment but by doing so she had unwittingly allowed a bad situation to get much worse. Why had she taken the picture to Eric? She loved him, yes. Even after his lie to her, she still trusted him. Still she knew he wasn’t thinking clearly and he wasn’t being rational where his biological father was concerned. The only thing for to have done was to take the evidence to Horatio and let him make the final decision about what to do. Instead she had let her emotions rule her head and instead offered the picture to Eric that provided the catalyst he needed to make exactly the wrong decision.
She had no one to blame but herself. She could admit now that even if her judgment had been compromised, Eric’s had been more than a little clouded…or so she had thought. Hearing Sharova’s words, seeing the man’s concern she was beginning to doubt what she thought she knew. Was it possible that Eric had been telling her the truth all along? As if her pain wasn’t deep enough that thought made it worse. Here she was sitting in her Hummer in the everglades watching the dogs and the masses of officers combing every inch of the last place they knew Eric to have been, in frantic search of his body and she could only stare unseeingly out of the windshield. Her eyes were bloodshot from all of her crying. Even now she couldn’t stem the tears. It was as if a gate had been opened and every emotion she had been holding back rushed forth when she realized that Eric was missing and he was hurt.
It made her last words to him seem even more harsh and accusatory. Although she felt athe time that she had been justified in saying them she would give anything to take the words back…to erase that as the last moment they had shared together. He had walked off angry and hurt and in her own pain and anger she had allowed him to leave her that way. Her thought had been the same as his, that they would talk about it later. Now, it was later and she didn’t know if she was ever going to have another later moment with Eric ever again. Her conscience and her anger warred with each other. She was angry at herself for being so stupid as to put herself in the position of breaking protocol in the first place. If she hadn’t done that they wouldn’t be in this position now. She was angry at Eric for getting himself into this situation. Why hadn’t he listened? Was Sharova telling the truth? All those things seemed secondary now in the face of him missing. Where was he? What condition would they find him in? Would they find him? Would he be alive if they found him? She couldn’t bear the thought of not knowing where he was and what he was going through.
‘Eric.’ She whispered brokenly. ‘Where are you?’
He was hurt and he needed her and all she could manage to do was sit here and cry. Gone was the emotionless, cold Calleigh Duquense. In her place was a woman she barely recognized. If someone had told her she would fall so hard and so fast for Eric Delko ten years ago she would have laughed herself silly. Now she couldn’t muster up a shred of laughter at just how real her feelings had become. Never in her life had she felt such anguish and such helplessness, such pain and hurt, such love and such anger. In spite of it all the only thing that she could think was that she couldn’t lose him. They had to get him back if only to save her own sanity.
Sitting up in the Hummer she wiped her eyes, blew her nose and exited the vehicle. Pulling herself together she knew that sitting there crying wasn’t helping find Eric. Horatio had sent her back to the car and she was well aware of the fact that her emotional breakdown was all Horatio needed to put two and two together. The secret she shared with Eric was no longer a secret and she really didn’t care at that moment. Those consequences she would deal with later. Her only concern right at this moment was to find the man she loved and pray that when she found him he was still alive and in one piece. She exited the vehicle, grabbed her flashlight and headed towards the first group of officers she saw searching the underbrush.
She would help to find him, she would help to get him back. It was the only thing that mattered to her. She didn’t fool herself into thinking that all was going to be wonderful with them when she did get him back. There were so many things the two of them were going to have to face. If she had been wrong and Eric hadn’t lied to her or deceived her she was going to have a long way to go to explain herself to him. If he had lied and deceived her he was going to know the full measure of her wrath, hurt, and disappointment. Irregardless of who was to blame, and how they got to where they are now she was determined this was something they were going to have to overcome. They would survive this…they had to…because as she had told Horatio…they couldn’t lose him. She couldn’t lose him.
This is a short fan fiction for E/C revolving around episode 725 'Seeing Red' It's the first fic I've posted here and was feeling a little angsty so here goes and I hope you like it. It's all from Calleigh's point of view and if you all like it I may post one from Eric's so looking foward to comments and constructive criticism. My goal is to always keep the characters in character so let's see how you like it.
Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me, they belong to CSI Miami, Jerry Bruckheimer etc.
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Dissolution of Trust
Ok, you know that if you have talked to him, if you have helped him it makes you an accessory.
I know the law.
Do you? I mean do you really?
Let’s talk about this later.
Over and over the conversation replayed in her mind like a recording. The record was stuck in the same spot and it was all she could hear. Her heart actually hurt from the pain, the anger, the despair, the anxiety she was feeling about all that had happened that day.
Everything that could have gone wrong had managed to go horribly wrong. Not only had she comprised her own judgment but by doing so she had unwittingly allowed a bad situation to get much worse. Why had she taken the picture to Eric? She loved him, yes. Even after his lie to her, she still trusted him. Still she knew he wasn’t thinking clearly and he wasn’t being rational where his biological father was concerned. The only thing for to have done was to take the evidence to Horatio and let him make the final decision about what to do. Instead she had let her emotions rule her head and instead offered the picture to Eric that provided the catalyst he needed to make exactly the wrong decision.
She had no one to blame but herself. She could admit now that even if her judgment had been compromised, Eric’s had been more than a little clouded…or so she had thought. Hearing Sharova’s words, seeing the man’s concern she was beginning to doubt what she thought she knew. Was it possible that Eric had been telling her the truth all along? As if her pain wasn’t deep enough that thought made it worse. Here she was sitting in her Hummer in the everglades watching the dogs and the masses of officers combing every inch of the last place they knew Eric to have been, in frantic search of his body and she could only stare unseeingly out of the windshield. Her eyes were bloodshot from all of her crying. Even now she couldn’t stem the tears. It was as if a gate had been opened and every emotion she had been holding back rushed forth when she realized that Eric was missing and he was hurt.
It made her last words to him seem even more harsh and accusatory. Although she felt athe time that she had been justified in saying them she would give anything to take the words back…to erase that as the last moment they had shared together. He had walked off angry and hurt and in her own pain and anger she had allowed him to leave her that way. Her thought had been the same as his, that they would talk about it later. Now, it was later and she didn’t know if she was ever going to have another later moment with Eric ever again. Her conscience and her anger warred with each other. She was angry at herself for being so stupid as to put herself in the position of breaking protocol in the first place. If she hadn’t done that they wouldn’t be in this position now. She was angry at Eric for getting himself into this situation. Why hadn’t he listened? Was Sharova telling the truth? All those things seemed secondary now in the face of him missing. Where was he? What condition would they find him in? Would they find him? Would he be alive if they found him? She couldn’t bear the thought of not knowing where he was and what he was going through.
‘Eric.’ She whispered brokenly. ‘Where are you?’
He was hurt and he needed her and all she could manage to do was sit here and cry. Gone was the emotionless, cold Calleigh Duquense. In her place was a woman she barely recognized. If someone had told her she would fall so hard and so fast for Eric Delko ten years ago she would have laughed herself silly. Now she couldn’t muster up a shred of laughter at just how real her feelings had become. Never in her life had she felt such anguish and such helplessness, such pain and hurt, such love and such anger. In spite of it all the only thing that she could think was that she couldn’t lose him. They had to get him back if only to save her own sanity.
Sitting up in the Hummer she wiped her eyes, blew her nose and exited the vehicle. Pulling herself together she knew that sitting there crying wasn’t helping find Eric. Horatio had sent her back to the car and she was well aware of the fact that her emotional breakdown was all Horatio needed to put two and two together. The secret she shared with Eric was no longer a secret and she really didn’t care at that moment. Those consequences she would deal with later. Her only concern right at this moment was to find the man she loved and pray that when she found him he was still alive and in one piece. She exited the vehicle, grabbed her flashlight and headed towards the first group of officers she saw searching the underbrush.
She would help to find him, she would help to get him back. It was the only thing that mattered to her. She didn’t fool herself into thinking that all was going to be wonderful with them when she did get him back. There were so many things the two of them were going to have to face. If she had been wrong and Eric hadn’t lied to her or deceived her she was going to have a long way to go to explain herself to him. If he had lied and deceived her he was going to know the full measure of her wrath, hurt, and disappointment. Irregardless of who was to blame, and how they got to where they are now she was determined this was something they were going to have to overcome. They would survive this…they had to…because as she had told Horatio…they couldn’t lose him. She couldn’t lose him.